11 Aug

Hello, My name is Tee, and this is my story:

For the past 16 years, I had considered myself saved, born again, gone to church my whole life…the whole nine yards. But, throughout those years, I realized that I had continued to be entangled in my sins…For example, I even dibbled and dabbled into occult practices about 4 years ago…I had actually convinced myself that it was all from God! But yet, I was saved??? I also had trouble with keeping my flesh subdued in certain situations, particularly when I would become angry or upset. I practiced idolatry by putting other things before my relationship with God, and not living for God first…the list goes on. Sure, I was a “good person,” whose life on the outside reflected that I may have been a true Christian….I didn’t curse, get drunk, and pretty much lived a decent life…even primarily listened to Christian music, but yet something was STILL WRONG. On the outside, I “appeared” to live like a Christian, and I always loved God, and all things “good,” but I only had a “form of Godliness.” Little did I know, I was not really saved.

I had been on a quest for TRUTH since about 2006. I began to notice the problems with organized religion, and how it really got in the way of my relationship with God, and I left the organized church because I truly could not hear the Holy Spirit’s voice because religion and false doctrine preached in the churches kept getting in the way. Sure, I visited churches from time to time, but was never led by the Holy Spirit to a particular church. The Holy Spirit has been leading me to the truth the entire time. Now, still believing I was saved, I continued on, posting in facebook groups, sharing the truth I was learning, which was good, but because I believed I was saved at the time, I preached some error about salvation…error that included works…because that’s what I thought salvation was.  This occurred when I had preached to someone about salvation in one of the groups. I was preaching in error…much of it was my pride of letting the guy know I was, “right.” Now, I have always had a lot of knowledge about Biblical things, and the Holy Spirit allowed me to discern a lot, but I still WAS NOT SAVED. Bible knowledge DOES NOT SAVE YOU! NOR DOES BEING A “GOOD PERSON” OR HAVING A GENUINE LOVE FOR JESUS, OR DOING CERTAIN WORKS TO ATTAIN SALVATION.

Not long after that post, I started questioning my salvation because the Holy Spirit began to deal with me mainly about how my life did not reflect the Fruits of the Spirit. Sure, I preached about it, but my OWN LIFE DIDN’T REFLECT IT!!! Lol! I then sought out Pam Sheppard’s help, because I felt like I really needed help with sorting things out about my salvation. I met Pam through a mutual facebook friend, and I read about her unique story of how she was led to Christ. I also found out that she is a Christian Counselor who has a love for helping people. I identified with her story because the Holy Spirit had already spoken to me about what she had been saying in her videos, blogs, etc., and because she always preached about the True Gospel of Jesus Christ. Contrary to what I had believed, and what MOST churches taught about salvation, I knew I could not have been saved based on even the fact that no change occurred in me, and because of the false doctrine that was preached to me. . I talked with Pam Sheppard on June 26, 2012. This is what happened:

The way I knew I was saved for sure was that when I heard the Gospel…it hit me like NEVER before. I talked with Pam by phone on June 26, 2012, and she asked me whether or not I believed I was saved. I replied, “Possibly.” You see, I knew the Holy Spirit had already been working on me about that, and I had recently started realizing that something was just NOT RIGHT…I started thinking about how I don’t think I truly repented and became a new creation back when I thought I had gotten saved back in 1996. Then, Pam preached the Gospel of Jesus Christ to me, and I knew that there was no way that I was saved because I wasn’t certain based on the Gospel. I didn’t understand the depth of what had happened…I just had knowledge.

Throughout the day, the Holy Spirit began to convict me about who I was before him….he began to deal with me…I thought a lot my conversation with Pam…but it didn’t stop there…when I got on the computer that night, well early that morning…I pretty much stayed up all night…I watched Pam’s “False Conversions” video series  on youtube…all of’ em! I began to truly understand what had happened with Jesus…and the DEPTH of what had happened. I realized that I had some “knowledge,” but don’t think I truly BELIEVED the Gospel! Right then, it was like faith just entered in me, and I believed the depth of it all. Details of the gospel resonated with me. He then led me to Galatians 5:19-23….and I saw my sin before me…I didn’t really see my sinful nature until that point.

But the video, “False Conversion Part 2_the Resurrection,” that’s the one that hit home with me….namely, during the end where Pam describes his resurrection, using an example of a dead person coming back alive at their own  funeral; becoming alive again in their same body, but then she goes on to say, THIS IS RESURRECTION. Then she powerfully says, “I believe a DEAD man lives, his name is Jesus Christ of Nazareth, and he is GOD!!!!!” that, right there, JESUS CHRIST IS GOD HIMSELF IN THE FLESH…..resonated with me WOOO HOOO!!!!…I kept listening to that over and over again a few times…and I sat up and said, “Oh my goodness!” It never even occurred to me that I don’t think I really believed that JESUS CHRIST WAS GOD IN THE FLESH….just that part really helped me.  Also the fact that he CAME BACK TO LIFE IN HIS VERY SAME BODY, and got up, in the FLESH!!! I kind of knew that, but not to the depth I that come to know it this time, and I’m not sure if I really truly believed that either, before.  And, every time I heard Pam say that one sentence, my entire body would get a big huge chill…Not long after that, I couldn’t sleep, and something said, “Hosanna.” So, I immediately just took the computer in the bathroom, and listened to a you tube song that I know, called “Hosanna,” by Hillsong United.

That song really spoke to me. Right then and there I cried a lot, just blown away by the fact that he would even do all of that…for ME, and for that reason alone compels me to want to live for him. I’m just so grateful that GOD…would come in the form of flesh, live in the flesh, go through that horrible death, bearing all of MY sins that I didn’t even realize were there….I didn’t realize how much of a sinner I really am.. God could not fellowship with me because of who I was…because of my wickedness. It separated me from him. The life I had lived was NOT a death to my flesh, and he did all of that just so I can have a chance at salvation. That’s LOVE! I don’t know anybody on this earth who died, then came back to life in the VERY SAME BODY! That’s MIND BLOWING! At that point, I knew that there was no way I could ever live like that again…I cried a little more after the song went off…

I watched the video yet again, and in my entire body, from head to toe I got a big, for lack of a better word, “chill” over my ENTIRE BODY…. all over from HEAD TO TOE….it was like having the chills to the maximum extent, if that makes sense. And then I said, “Well I just heard the Gospel of Jesus Christ :o, ” and smiled. I sat there for a minute. Then, on the computer screen (on the you tube screen where I watched the music video) there were suggested videos of the cross on the right…so I clicked one of the videos, and just watched the crucifixion and cross. I think I watched 2 more music videos…and was reminded, yet again how Jesus overcame sin and death for me. All of those sins that have been just so EASY for me to commit ALL THE TIME….he bore them. There had to be a blood sacrifice for our sin because God cannot accept sin….he did the ULTIMATE thing. He was the ULTIMATE sacrifice…it should have been my blood, but he took my place. The day before, Pam had preached the Gospel of Jesus Christ to me…like I’ve never heard it before…and that changed me. I now know that I am a NEW CREATION…it’s a big difference. The Holy Spirit power within me keeps me from indulging in sin…and it convicts me at all times to keep me from sinning. It’s hard to explain…but the power of the Gospel does something to you…once you really hear it and come to believe and have faith in what happened.

I no longer wonder about my salvation. My eyes have been opened to the TRUTH. I will NEVER FORGET the power of God I experienced right in that moment on June 27, 2012 @ 4:42 a.m. I was joyful after sobbing over the fact that God did all of that just for ME…I just can’t live a life of sin anymore. I KNOW the Gospel of Jesus Christ now! Nobody can take that away from me! Everything happened real fast! lol When everything happened, I was like, “Huh?” I knew the Holy Spirit was in me when it happened…I recognized its presence. This is the part that is wild: THE HOLY SPIRIT ENTERED INTO ME, AND I RECOGNIZED ITS PRESENCE IMMEDIATELY. I KNEW IT WAS THE HOLY SPIRIT. You can’t believe the Gospel if you don’t understand it. You can’t understand it without it being properly preached to you. And without the understanding, you cannot be saved/ born again. But, religion, religious pride, and false doctrine blocks us from hearing the TRUE GOSPEL…happened to me for years.

20 Responses to “FOR 16 YEARS, I THOUGHT I WAS SAVED!”

  1. kayy August 15, 2019 at 3:29 pm #

    Please help me, i don’t think i;m saved, i believe that Jesus died for my sins and understand the gospel but i’m still scared so i don’t know if i’m believing in vain, i don’t show the fruits of the Holy Spirit and i see no change in me and i have trused in Jesus but i still don’t believe i’m saved, what do i do please, i don’t want to go to hell.


  2. Tee September 29, 2018 at 9:37 am #

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  3. Tasha April 25, 2015 at 10:13 am #

    This site is very informative. Setting people free from a false gospel is the most important thing!! “In the Grip of Grace” by Max Lucado did it for me. Some other excellent books that helped my friend and my dad are “God without Religion” by Andrew Farley and “The Naked Gospel” by Andrew Farley.
    I’m currently reading “52 lies Taught in Church Every Sunday” by Steve McVey. The same themes are repeated through all of the books. McVey says “Diluted Gospel is polluted Gospel and polluted Gospel is no Gospel at all.” 😀

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    • Tee April 25, 2015 at 10:54 am #

      Tasha, it is great that you see this. Thank you for your comment. I have learned that the very FIRST thing I needed to do was be willing to examine my conversion, and consider that perhaps I was not saved at all, and that the reason I was so confused for so many years was because So many different false doctrines were preached to me. I had to discard my former religious beliefs, and allow myself to be detoxed from religion. I left the organized church, and threw away everything that I was taught in the church. It gave me such a tremendous amount of freedom and clear-thinking that it allowed the Lord to truly show me some things…things that most people in the churches do not even see…because they are blinded by religion. The Holy Spirit led me OUT of the organized church 3 times, to reveal to me the false doctrines that were being taught not just in a few churches, but in ALL churches, for He showed me that his TRUE church is a spiritual, invisible body of born again believers from the past, present, and in the future. The organized church is man-made, preaching all kinds of doctrines that are not from God, but influenced by the devil because none of those doctrines are 100% truth. I just kept realizing that something was just not right, but the first 2 times, could not believe that God was calling me out of what I previously regarded as my avenue to Him. I have noticed that MOST professing Christians are unwilling to do even leave the church, let alone examine their salvation experiences….which are two very CRUCIAL steps to becoming undeceived. They let pride get in the way, and end up missing the mark, all because they want to prove to others that they are saved. In all of this, I have learned that God truly does oppose the proud, but gives grace to the humble.


    • Tee April 25, 2015 at 12:59 pm #

      Also Tasha, here is a link to books that I HIGHLY recommend that cover the same topics you discussed. You can find them here:


    • Tee April 25, 2015 at 1:05 pm #

      Actually, the link is


    • savetheanimals July 26, 2015 at 8:55 am #

      hi bros & sis, what time can i call, i’m from france, for i got demons and im too depressed, because i will never be strong in my body, normal in my head, as they destroyed my head even more than it already was , i’ve always been abnormal in my head+ my body was full of strenght, now its so weak, for they have stolen many muscle, weight, heart strenght, so i got like 70 percent more difficulty when i workout, and the wrkouts were so easy for me befroe the yoga demons I those demons destroy the mental+physical health I i really don’t grasp why me ??? why so few ?? are attacked by the yoga demons, for there are plenty yoga isntructors, yoguis who have practiced this for decades & their health is every day better! for the sports, evertyime stronger muscules+heart I the demons never attacked their bodies, evne though they live in them! so few like me have been attacked in their bodies & why does GOD & YESHOUA JESUS let them? perhaps for i’m a hypocrite fake chrisians, i do not fele enough love, enough faith, i do not fele enough itnerest for YAHUSHUA JESUS CHRIST+ GOD ABBA & i don’t deserve their help & i do not worship GOD, i wish i did, i pray deliverance prayers but the demons remain in me for prayer without concentration without faith don’t work I its been 6 months there in my spirit stomach body head I sometimes my head feels so bad I GOD & JESUS have saved otehrs from yoga demons destrotying their body helth but its caus those people or were chrsitians or became true christians I i ‘ve never felt like a true christian I so now theier health is totally good & everything’s ok I but for me i’ve been suffering so much in my head & body for 6 months! i thought i was gonna die for they made me week like some 97 year old I i was 26 I and in my head too many insults & sexual thoguths a lot of sinful thoguths towards GOD JESUS I i think they put those thoughts in me I i hope it aint my own thoughts i feel like i love GDO’s creation or satan’s stuff: music, tv & animals more tha YESHUA & ABBA I that is probably why they o not release me from the evil spirits I the demons make me have impulsion phobia making me say mentally that i want them in me , i do not want them in me I please its so rugent I i always felt the unvierse agaisnt me as i cant never do anything, nobody helps mme, never all my life when i had issues I caus no exorcist fro france answers, and there are only 1 exocirst next to paris!!! and the other is an evil person as people say on the internet I so ive always thoguth nothign could be right for me, never could i find any help, never could i do nothing, the u everythign everyone agaisnt me, so much bad luckk ,, even if theres no such thing as this but i cant beleive this, why so few exocrists and why cant i find true christians who are not exocirst but who live for GOD, in GOD an who got so uch faith that they could free me from the demons I but catolicims=satanism, or halp being cristian half satanic for they worship saints Mary angels! = demons, fake Mary fake angels ect I i cant ask them to help me! most “christian” in france dont have faith! don live for GOD! people think only nuns, priests should live for GOD, no!!! everyone !!! thanks in advance


      • Tee July 26, 2015 at 4:05 pm #

        You can call anytime noon to midnight, 7 days a week, est. If no answer, she is in session. Leave a clear message with a phone number for a return call. (518) 477-5759. You can also send an email to Pam at

        Sent from my iPad


  4. Brad Stanton August 17, 2012 at 6:25 pm #

    This is a fantastic post. very honest, I got here from Nizy’s Life Comp. blog. Thanks for your great post.


    • tolandar October 2, 2012 at 7:05 pm #

      You are so welcome, and I’m glad you were encouraged by my story!


  5. wenonaruss August 11, 2012 at 5:15 pm #

    Every time I read your testimony, I get tears in my eyes. BEAUTIFUL!



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