Are You A Spiritual Addict?

5 Apr

Looking back, I believe I was a spiritual addict, coming off of one high and waiting for the next moment of ecstasy. Besides having frequent supernatural experiences, my addiction manifested most often in the area of intercession, where I went before God weeping and wailing, until my eyes were so swollen that I could barely see through them. I thought this was my greatest sacrifice. I looked so humble when I was in the midst of it, that even my church enemies were affected.

To overcome a spiritual addiction, one needs to accept truth. Were you spiritually addicted? What truths did you have to accept that broke it? In fact, are you STILL addicted?

I took note of a quote from a book I was reading online, I believe it comes from the book called “Toxic Faith.”

The practice of faith can provide tremendous relief from the pain and frustrations of life. When a person trusts in God, he or she no longer feels overwhelmed with problems or burdened from believing all problems must be resolved alone. This is a natural result of placing faith in a God who promises that his burden is light. But there is another kind of relief, an emotional frenzy that becomes an addiction and robs the individual of real faith. I was on a Christian talk show and afterward had the pleasure of going to lunch with the staff. They related stories of the variations of faith and the strange incidents that develop when faith becomes unbalanced.

When I once served as a pastor in the institutional church for  almost 25 years,  I witnessed and personally experienced  several instance  of toxic faith, way too many to either remember or describe.  Since I have been free from the church system since 2004, last year  I began to listen  to my old messages, going back  to a time when I was pastoring  a church I founded in 1996 called Healing Waters, with my daughter as assistant pastor.

What a duo we were! LOL.  To put it bluntly without any sugar-coating, WE WERE WILD!!! She would pray and then go off into that sing-song whooping that black preachers are known for. Behind her, as a backdrop, I was speaking in tongues. I could hear myself goin “”babababababa.” I have since learned that Baba, is one of Satan’s pet names his followers call him. These sermons and  messages are on my cell phone. As I  listened while on the treadmill in the gym or as I lifted wfted weights, I almost became  sick to my stomach.

God is so merciful and patient.

For 25 years, possibly more,  I received  supernatural experiences everyday or at least twice a week. Dreams mostly, but other things as well. Back in my church days,  I believe I lived more in the faith of my experiences than in God Himself. If I was not truly born again, I would have been very disappointed when all of this spiritual captivation ceased. after decades  of frequency.

Do I miss all of that supernatural excitement?

Good question.

Absolutely not.  Once I found that most of my former  mysticism came from the devil or one of his religious evil spirits, I WAS DONE!!!

The truth is that I really  embrace  the peace and my former of fear of dying. My quiet faith undergirds my knowledge that I am  kept by God and I am fine with it.  I have “entered into His rest” having gone through much struggle to get rid of the rollercoaster ride of ecstatic spiritual experiences.  In 2007 and again in 2008, God spoke to me in a quiet yet thoroughly  intense way.  He sent His thoughts to  my spirit, words received by my mind, and I answered Him back without opening my mouth.   I did not groan, moan, wail, leap, run, shout or any other fleshly outbursts.  I sat at my desk at home quiet and still  as we communed spirit to Spirit.

Over the last 10 years, I have received messages and teachings in dreams and in sudden, kind of pop-up revelations.  Out of those messages from the Holy Spirit, 6 books were birthed.  What I know today is that anyone who claims they hear from God daily and that they have seen Him frequently, face to face is either a liar or he or she has been duped by a religious fallen angel who serves Jesus Sananda Immanuel who serves Maitreya, who serves Satan himself.

So I no longer push God to speak to me in a big way.  I respect Him and so I wait on Him.

Its been a decade now.  Time flew by real fast.  So I am ready to hear from God in a big way again—soon!

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