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Living With Addiction

20 May

Living with addiction is an extremely draining, and even a hostile environment. It seems as all the help and good you want to offer is rejected, and ignored—sucked into a black hole. Recently, I have received revelation with what to do if you live in a home with someone who abuses themselves with alcohol and drugs.

Step One

The first thing you must do if the person does not have an aggressive behavior is too indirectly confront them in the spirit of gentleness. Since, a lot of addicts take offense easily. It’s best during confronting to make it about yourself. For example, “I cannot do this anymore, it’s hurting me.” People who are in addiction often do not have self-awareness of how they harm others and themselves.

If you live with an aggressive person, confrontation is not the best and can be dangerous. Depending on the circumstance you may have to leave the environment, and go through the hassle of moving out.

Remember, always try to confront the person when they are sober. And make sure the timing is right. Do not confront them if they are too emotional, angry, and upset. Confrontation is always going to be uncomfortable, but if the person sees your perspective then they might get help. If they deny the confrontation and continue their addiction here is the next step.

Step Two

Boundaries, boundaries, boundaries!!!!

Maybe people who have been living with addiction are often blinded by the toxicity of the person’s problems. Blinded because of affections, emotions, and thus turn a “blind eye” to the person. And, in order to preserve themselves and their relationship with the addicted person they will become “servants” of the addiction.

Psychology calls it “co-dependency” but the best way to describe it is “toxic help.” The one living with addiction helps in every way, does things, takes care of them, but the one thing this person avoids is the abuse itself. It’s almost like how doctors often take care of the symptoms by prescribing medication but not taking care of the cause of the symptoms. In this analogy, the toxic help, will go on forever, never actually achieving any results.

Overtime, the person helping will begin to think they are responsible for “saving” the person. That they are the only ones who can help them. The error of this thinking leads to a devastating life of sadness, despair, frustration, and pain.

Step Two Contiuned

So, back to boundaries. A person struggling with “toxic help” has had the abusive person’s addictions walk all over them. What needs to be done is an assertive measure to refuse the addiction’s power from crossing over the boundary.

Sometimes this may be leaving the environment, or ending the relationship or “putting it on hold”. Temporary distance, maybe be required. Less interaction, less attention, are all ways to set up boundaries. Since, ultimately the goal of the abusive person is for you to go along with their addiction in all its excuses and rationalizations.

Boundaries can be difficult to set up if you have been so drawn over with the person’s burdens. You may need time alone to assess what needs to be done, and what boundaries can no longer be crossed. For example, no longer drinking in the presence of an alcoholic is a boundary.


People who abuse alcohol and drugs are extremely unpredictable. Anytime you interact with them, you must come in a “spirit of gentleness” or “innocent as a dove.” Yet, at the same time you must be an undercover “wise serpent” judging, and handling the situation with wisdom.

Never approach an addict with hostility, frustration or anger. It will only make things worse.

You have to know the addict, and yourself. Honestly, sometimes it’s just easiest to leave the environment, and stay somewhere else.

Step Three: Don’t Grow Weary

Living with addiction is a subtle gloomy, dark, and chaotic world. Everything good, full of life is sucked and pulled into the addiction. The Devil loves using people with addiction to create all hell, sadness, and havoc in the homes of loved ones; to steal your joy, and healthy attitude, and good outlook on life. Don’t fall in the trap of pessimism! Keep being optimistic….

Here at Pam Sheppard Ministries we can give you all the support, and comfort you need. In these times of quarantine it may be even more draining and tiresome living with addicted, abusive people. We are 11th hour workers, here online and you can reach out to us. Call now at 888-818-1117 or email

You are not responsible for bearing another person’s addiction. You are responsible though for not allowing their addiction to ruin YOUR LIFE! Be mentally strong, and fight the fight of your soul.

The Holy Spirit Moved on Me to Say that I am a Prophet

20 May

As I was speaking in the Zoom Sunday Service, I was feeling what is akin to righteous anger at all the nay sayers. Was it my anger or that of the Holy Ghost?
I suspect it was both. But it did not feel like MY anger. For my outburst shocked even me as I intended to teach and not “to declare what thus saith the Lord.”

Based upon my own shock at what boldly came out of my mouth, I am reminded of when Jesus told His disciples that when they spoke, it would not be them speaking but the spirit of the Lord. It is recorded in the gospels as He was sending them out as described in Matthew 10.

This is how it felt. LIKE I WAS NOT SPEAKING. MY FAITH AND CONFIDENCE WAS THROUGH THE ROOF, BEYOND MY NORMAL, NATURAL STATE. I thought to myself, “Who is this? It is not me so therefore it must be God or the devil.

Recently I have been considering and mentioning here and there that I am getting my disciples ready for the end, that I am fine with dying and going to be with the Lord and leaving the ministry to them. So I suspect that I have been angering the Holy Ghost for speaking of and accepting dying when I am healthy enough to be alive when the Lord returns.

So in truth, I expect I will be alive when Jesus Christ comes. I am just an “all options good or bad” , “if not” kind of person. In other words, I plan for all possibilities. What I have actually done is simply face death and in so doing , I am no longer afraid of dying before my work is completed. Much work is left to do as I have only begun the training process for some. Even my written curriculum is only partially completed.

Nevertheless, the Coronavirus has clearly shown me that I don’t miss the world, that I am glad to be away from people and their foolishness, and that I desire that Jesus come back RIGHT NOW!

What I anticipate is my connection to Matthew 10:

You will be brought before governors and kings for My sake, as a testimony to them and to the Gentiles. But when they deliver you up, do not worry about how or what you should speak. For it will be given to you in that hour what you should speak; for it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father who speaks in you.Matthew 10:18-20

That is exactly how it felt on Sunday, May 17, 2020, like someone else was speaking through me.

It was mild. Easy to “overlook” —-not like when an evil spirit actually did speak through me almost half a century ago. When I was unknowingly a practicing occultist in 1975, a fallen angel stepped into me AND SPOKE!

I felt like my throat was grabbed at the larynx. At first, I became dizzy, almost incoherent when my spirit left my body and I looked back at myself from a corner in the room and heard myself screaming “let me back in” but the people assembled could not hear me.

That was a frightful thing, believe me!!!

Such. Thing has not happened to me again in 45 years!

It should be noted that last Sunday, I did not leave my body. Instead, my mind went into a kind of “suspended animation.” It was hard to tell, if this was me or if this was NOT me speaking. So notice in this scripture, that while the Lord was talking to the 12, Jesus intentionally spoke these words, knowing that what He said to the twelve would be eventually recorded in the Bible, specifically intended for the 11th hour workers to see:

“Now brother will deliver up brother to death, and a father his child; and children will rise up against parents and cause them to be put to death. And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake. But he who endures to the end will be saved. When they persecute you in this city, flee to another. For assuredly, I say to you, you will not have gone through the cities of Israel before the Son of Man comes.

A disciple is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master. It is enough for a disciple that he be like his teacher, and a servant like his master. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more will they call those of his household! Therefore do not fear them. For there is nothing covered that will not be revealed, and hidden that will not be known.Matthew 10:21-26

In 1979, 2 yrs born again, I heard a voice declare, referring to me, “touch not my anointed and do my prophets no harm.” The man who I would eventually marry in 1988 had harmed me seriously, that very day in the summer of 1979. Later that same night, I heard a voice tell me to go to his house. I refused but the voice would not relent so I got in my car and drove to Billy’s place.

When I I arrived, huge orange flames were blazing through Billy’s windows. I was shocked by the fire, but even more, the voice that sent me there called me a prophet with a quotation that I did know at the time was even in the Bible. Nor did I know then what a prophet was. I thought to myself “all of this stuff is rather spooky!”

There are other signs I have received that suggest that I am an end time prophet—-manifestations that I have been periodically receiving over the years. I admit that there have been a significant number of indications and revelations. . First cautious, and then believing the signs, I was aware that others would not believe me. . So I kept my mouth shut on this for 41 years. Since my trial sermon in 1981, I have been called a preacher, a teacher and evangelist. But not a prophet.

So for two days now, I wondered, “who was that who spoke through me? Was that God, the devil, or did I lose control of the message, and utter what was unplanned?

I find that when God is about to answer a question of mind, He does so in twos, usually it is the second day, that God answers my question. So last night, my question about Sunday was resolved.

In truth, I have been angering God by holding back. So He stepped in and “took over as I was speaking. Like, if YOU won’t say it Pam, I WILL!!!!

You are an end time prophet! If you don’t say it to the people, your faith is limited by your silence.


After 41 years, it’s time to be said.

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