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Idolatry of the Heart & Mind

2 Mar

One of the ongoing missions of Pam Sheppard Ministries is to lead our clients out of the captivity of Satan and into the freedom of Christ. A prevalent reason for their spiritual woes is idolatry, often having manifested in them worshiping fallen angels posing as Jesus without them knowing it. They often cause this by asking Jesus to come into their heart or prior involvement in religion or the occult.

Yet there is another form of idolatry, a deeper one that is essentially a heart issue that arose out of original sin. This is inner worship of something. Let me break this down on two fronts: 1) How sin and fall from grace led to man practicing idolatry and 2) How idolatry is often practiced today with whatever one wants.

First off, look at the scriptures and you will see God’s original intent for His beloved creation, man, was to have a special relationship with God and that one of the main components of this love was worship. Adam and Eve got to enjoy an incredibly blessed and privileged existence because they were constantly near God both in a physical and spiritual sense. When one is close to God and worships Him, one feels a Godly joy and peace within. Too many times have I seen worship misunderstood as a physical act wherein the person may feel some fleshly emotion but not the Godly, spiritual sense of satisfaction and joy that God brings.

Adam and Eve’s disobeying of the Lord God opened the door to sin taking a foothold inside of man. It led to a corruption of the soul and a separation from God that was passed down to every single human being conceived after them except for Jesus Christ. In Old Testament times, the Lord God began a mission to overcome sin by leading a lineage of people who would eventually pave the way for Christ to be born. We read of the saints of old who were Godly men and women who worshiped the true God.

Yet due to man having sinned, there were many people who were led astray into deceit because ultimately man still felt a deep sense of needing to worship something to draw close to God. A byproduct of sin allowing man to become aware of evil was that man started to worship false gods. This is the first form of idolatry we read about in history and it became commonplace, resulting in events like golden calves and other gods being worshiped across different cultures.

Idolatry continued throughout the ages in various forms up until the modern day. The plight we see with regards to idolatry today is twofold: 1) outer worship of false gods, most commonly through churches claiming to be Christian and 2) inner worship and love of something that is not God, whether it be self, an activity, money, etc.

Think of the path the common man takes today. One is born with a dead spirit. Their first priority should be to want God and become alive spiritually. But due to being separated from God they are blinded to the idea of seeking Him.

Instead, their life becomes a mission to have a good career, find a mate, have a family, find something they are passionate about and dedicate their lives to it, so on and so forth. While these things and others have their place, the problem arises when they become the top priority in one’s life and seen as the meaning of it. They aren’t.

The meaning of life is to be reconciled to the Lord God and serve Him so that He may be pleased with you. The idolatry of things that are not God come because man has an innate need to worship and love. So because the person is ignorant to the idea that they should seek God, they find something else to replace Him and make that their god instead.

Perhaps the god we see most in the world today is self, with the common man motivated by self pleasure. The past few hundred years especially have seen things like philosophy and science pump man’s ego to the point where he believes he is his own master. You choose your own path in life and do whatever you want so long as it is in the context of completing the broader mission you have set out for yourself. People do this because they do not understand what it is to worship God in spirit and truth.

I’ll speak plainly: it is better to have one’s spirit reborn in Christ and live what would be considered an unremarkable or meager life than it is to accomplish all of one’s goals, dreams, attaining all of their physical desires, only for them to die with a dead spirit which never got to experience the love of God. Their spirit was dead and empty without them even realizing it because all they focused on was flesh.

What most people do not realize is that by serving the Lord God in spirit and truth, you also benefit from it. You experience joy. You experience love. You experience devotion to a perfect Being Who loves you unconditionally and fills your soul and spirit with a peace, happiness and assurance that is IMPOSSIBLE to get from ANYTHING in the world.

Love of self or fleshly desires has led to a myriad of issues that our clients have found themselves in counseling for. There are people who made a god out of things of the world and have experienced some form of psychological damage. For myself, I was mostly my own god before being born again and this led to arrogance, anger, emptiness and coldheartedness. Yet God forgave me for my wrongful ways and has graciously redeemed me, giving my life purpose in Him.

So I ask you: who do you love? What do you love? What is being put first in your life? Do you seek God? All I illustrate is that there are millions of people caught up in a wave of self-worship unaware that a second flood is coming which they will be blindsided by because all they could think about was their flesh. Seek God, for He has a life for His people full of mystery, wonder, meaning and love that transcends anything the world offers.

Do you wish to understand more about idolatry and how it has negatively affected the church today? Have you made idols out of things that have distracted you from seeking the Lord God? Learn more about the subject by purchasing Pastor Pamela Sheppard’s book, “The New Idolatry” here: or

Alternatively, if you seek to be free of false idolatry that has manifested in your life give PSM a call at 888-818-1117 or email

Idolatry & Rituals: How You Invite Demons Unaware Pt. 2

14 Feb

This is the second part of a 2-part series about invitations to fallen angels. If you have not seen the first part, check it out here:

How easy is it to draw an evil spirit to oneself? We have had a number of clients who did nothing more than watch a youtube video on the kundalini awakening or a reiki practice where the person they were watching “transferred” energy to them and boom, the person became demonized! I myself spoke to a picture of the fake Jesus and he leapt out of my smartphone in the spirit and led me in a false conversion!

Because by obeying these deceptions and practices that were crafted by demons to “bring healing” or “bring salvation” or any number of things they purport to be, they actually serve as an invitation to the devil himself to act in the person’s life! No elaborate ritual or summoning is required these days. Here is a list of common practices which actually attract demons to a person:

–       Prayer to any god or deity who is not God the Father, Who is approached in the Name of God the Son, the Lord Jesus Christ by those who are born again
–       Reiki
–       Yoga
–       Eucharist
–       Speaking in tongues
–       Hypnotism, including hypnotherapy which is on the rise
–       Magical practices that seem like harmless fun such as palm reading, Ouija, fortune telling, etc.
–       Astrology and horoscopes to the point that one is living their life around it
–       And many more!

In addition, a lot of groundwork has been done on Satan’s part to ensure that the ideas of summoning and drawing evil spirits seem like madness, something that only superstitious people, religious zealots or crazy people do. My own perception before joining the ministry was that drawing demons to oneself was a product of false religions, something you mainly see in the Middle East where they go into temples and pray to false gods.

Yet there are so many vehicles of deceit and destruction that appear benign on the surface that all one has to do is open up their youtube app or go to church on Sunday and there they are, demonized. Social media and online communication is great for allowing people to connect with each other, but there’s danger in how accessible things of the devil are. Because he is sly and knows how to dress up evil so that it looks harmless on the surface level.

Have you ever heard of a serial killer pleading in court that “demons told him to?” In actuality, he is probably telling the truth and got so far into obeying evil spirits that he began to see and hear them when most people can’t. Yet due to his evil action and the lack of knowledge of the spirit realm that is pervasive in the world he is written off as insane and ignored.

These things happen on a smaller scale: if someone is hateful and prone to violence, demons may target that person and trigger an event that gets them so angry they may inflict violence on another or even take their life. If they are greedy, demons may set them up to lose a great sum of money or even win some, ultimately to go in debt and commit suicide from the devastation. If they are interested in the supernatural, there are dozens of methods (some named earlier in this article) that will be brought to that person’s attention so they can pursue it and stir more demonic influence in their life.

The topic of how one’s personality (a part of their soul) draws demons to themselves is a whole other topic to be explored. A quick takeaway on the subject is this: Satan uses different strokes for different folks. He studies the individual and no matter what personality they have, his army is seasoned enough to craft a customized gameplan to bring about their downfall.

For now I leave you with this: if you were going to put your money in a stock that you heard secondhand might be successful, would you not research it before doing so? If you were going to put your time into a pursuit, hobby or relationship, would you not look up information about it or get to know the person before committing to them? So it is with various practices: Research what you are getting involved in. Look at its history, the root of it. Ask yourself: is this dangerous on a spiritual level? The pitfalls arise when the person takes a careless attitude towards it and hops into the activity without understanding its deeper implications or consequences.

The issue is that a lot of these practices are presented as harmless, healthy, all in good fun and that’s causing people to find themselves in peril. People are also doing these things in an effort to draw nearer to God, only to be led to a false god. Do not seek God through some practice or dramatic act. When you are born again, you do not need such things. When you are born again, you have inner peace and an assurance you can palpably feel within as a result of being reborn in the Spirit of Christ. One does not command God to save them; He saves them in His own timing and way. If you are reading this, it’s likely you are His and salvation is only a matter of time. Rest in that.

Have you experienced spiritual torment? Are you currently under attack by demons and find that no matter what you do, they are not relenting or leaving? We can help: send an email to or call 888-818-1117.

If you would like to learn more about the spiritual warfare that is going on in our times, pay a visit to Pastor Pam’s shop and pick up a book via one of the following links: or

Idolatry & Rituals: How You Invite Demons Unaware Pt. 1

14 Feb

There is an idea that demons and fallen angels must be summoned through specific rituals and incantations. How true is this and what does it mean for you?

The amount of growth that PSM has seen in its workload over the past 2 years in particular has been quite the significant increase in terms of percentage gained in comparison to its previous years. More and more are we finding clients coming to us saying, “A demon has afflicted me lately. All I did was go to church, accepted Jesus, prayed and read my Bible. Yet they torment me day and night, how can such a thing be?”

Allow me to give you the short answer: It is much easier to draw demons to you than commonly thought. There is a wide arrange of invitations that the common person is not even aware is an invitation! This idea that an elaborate ritual with pentagrams drawn on the floor surrounded by candles and oxblood must be performed lends itself to a misconception that that is the only way demons can enter the lives of the individual to gain ground over them. If it were only that simple.

Before I link this to the modern spiritual crisis of the age wherein we are witnessing millions open themselves up to demons in the spirit realm, I am going to give a brief explanation of how we got here.

The scriptures speak of practices performed dating back to the Old Testament that were seen as abominations by God, practices like necromancy (speaking to the dead) and divination (the practice of seeing into the future). These arts are loosely related in the field that is called magic and occult. Over time, this field branched out and started inventing new ways to draw spirits to oneself, such as Ouija, fortune telling, crystal ball seeing, seances, palm reading and more. The power in these practices is that they were actually created by demons and fallen angels who crafted them, and then used various people in the physical realm to bring them into popularity and prominence.

In short, doing things of such a nature acts as a signal to demons in the spirit realm who are then given access to the person. They are able to do this because they are agreeing to their involvement by practicing something that was designed to draw and worship them. And to channel their powers through human beings as well which is an abominable intermingling of two beings which were not intended to.

Many partakers of magic and occultic rituals throughout history knew they were drawing spirits to them. In the spirit realm, Satan’s question then became: how can I draw in those who are naïve or avoidant of these things so I may have more control over them too? He decided to use religion, because religion is often rife with practices and rituals. Its participants do them under the idea that it is pleasing to the Lord God but are deceived.

In time, this led to a 2-step process by fallen angels: 1) craft false religions worldwide, creating different sets of false beliefs tailormade to the culture it was created in and 2) insert various practices and rituals into said religions so its participants are inviting demons and fallen angels into their lives without even knowing it.

As the Lord God has said: His people are destroyed for a lack of knowledge. Satan deceived Eve by telling her that she would become like God, knowing good from evil. It was a half-truth, with the disastrous consequences being hidden from the woman as all she could focus on was how pleasing to the eye the idea was. This is the basis and foundation of deceit that we see bleed into false religions.

Look throughout history and you will find a multitude of religions and occult practices having a set of rituals to honor their gods, ancestors, saints or whomever is being worshiped or honored. The problem is that these are often presented as a thing of the past; practices of antiquity such as Daoism, shamanic traditions, voodoo, etc. Yet Satan has cleverly designed and infiltrated religions in such a way that people are drawing spirits to them more than ever before.

Fast forward to today and the cry of the average client is: “All I did was go to church and say the sinner’s prayer, accepting Jesus into my heart. Why has this torment befallen me?” That is because the act of saying that prayer aloud is an invitation to a fallen angel who poses as Jesus based off a false idea that man must take action to be born again.

This is the first part of a 2-part series regarding invitations to demons and fallen angels. Next time I’ll outline examples of everyday activities that are being conducted that draw evil spirits. If you want to learn more about protecting oneself from evil spirits and fallen angels, purchase one of Pastor Pam’s books on the subject such as “The Fake Jesus: Fallen Angels Among Us” or “The Church of the Endtime Zombies” from her store here: Find Kindle books at

The Hunt: Fallen Angels & Religious Demons in Everyday Life

11 Jan
One third of the angels in heaven rebelled with Satan and were cast out by God. They now dwell the earth. What do they do all day, and how does it affect us?

Many of the clientele that PSM deals with have undergone a spiritual torment of some variety. They have endured blasphemous thoughts, evil visions, religiosity and physical torment from demons and fallen angels among other things. What is shocking about it is that many of them only started experiencing such things after attending church and other religious practices!

Why are so many people experiencing these afflictions? Why and how are they led into it? And what can be done about it? All of these questions and more will be explored in this article. It is written that God’s people are destroyed for a lack of knowledge. Let this article serve as knowledge bestowed unto His people so that they may be learned when dealing with the forces of evil. For you, too, will experience a moment when Satan and his emissaries leap at you when you were doing nothing but going about your daily business.

This will be divided into 3 parts: 1) Understanding Satan’s motivations for attacking the saints, 2) how demons and fallen angels operate in everyday life and 3) what those in God, both born again and not, can do to deal with such attacks.

1: Understanding Satan’s motivations for attacking the saints.

I want you to think big picture for a moment. We live in a vast world with over 7 billion people on earth. Yet, there is a spiritual realm — one that is invisible — consisting of God, Satan, angels of God, angels of Satan, demons and more. All of these beings have the capability to do things that are impossible in the physical realm.

Where we come in is the fact that we are a special creation: Man. We were designed to have spiritual fellowship and worship with God. This puts us above all the animals of the earth and marks us as an object of hatred for Satan because we are a divinely crafted being that is meant to worship the one true God: Jesus Christ of Nazareth. Satan rebelled against God and set out to be god. Because of our unique nature, he seeks worship from us and control over us. God wants man to be redeemed and reconciled to Him; Satan wants man under his control and to be used against God’s will. This is the battleground of spiritual warfare we find ourselves in the midst of.

Furthermore, we know that man ultimately has one of two fates: being born again with the Spirit of God and reconciled to Him for all eternity, or suffering damnation due to their unrepentant soul remaining separated from God all throughout his life. Satan and his forces have been on earth for thousands of years and they have sharpened their skills in weaving deceit across the minds of man. The rivers of time flow with the souls of man floating across it quietly, while Satan comes crashing against them like a tidal wave seeking to bring them under into the depths.

The scriptures speak of the elect of God. They are the heirs of salvation. Many of the clientele who have come to PSM are the elect of God, waiting to be born again. This means that they are special targets of Satan because he especially revels in attacking those who are predestined to serve the Lord Jesus Christ.

Now I want to bring you back to a point I made earlier: 7+ billion people live on the earth as we speak. Yet many more billions populated the world before our fleeting time here on earth. For all of those people who came before us over the course of thousands of years, these evil forces were working to bring about their destruction. And when their targets died and left the physical realm, they would go onto the next target(s). So these evil forces are extremely learned and skilled with crafting intricate plans to attack their targets.

For the people on earth, demons and fallen angels are assigned to them to bring about their downfall. So what do they do all day while we are living our daily lives? Demons and fallen angels spend their entire existence plotting the fall of man and acting out to lead them into spiritual pitfalls and traps. This brings us to the next point: exactly what it is that they do to deceive man.

2: How Demons and Fallen Angels Operate in Everyday Life

Let us look at how the Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth described Satan. While rebuking the Pharisees in John 8:44, He said: “You are of your father the devil, and you want to do the desires of your father. He was a murderer from the beginning, and does not stand in the truth because there is no truth in him. Whenever he tells a lie, he speaks from his own nature, because he is a liar and the father of lies.”

So there it is: Satan’s main weapon of choice against man is lies. For more information on how lies affect soul and spirit, check out my article here: Lies and Deception Affect Both Soul & Spirit.

However, I want to bring this all together so that one may begin to understand what is going on in the spirit realm and how it affects the physical so that they may begin to think critically on their own situation and achieve victory.

A lie is a statement lacking in truth and planted to bring deceit into the mind of its hearer if they believe it. The full truth of a matter is not always immediate to the person who is looking at it. In the spirit, Satan and his workers are constantly at work creating false ideas to present to its target and lead them into other falsehoods to have more control of them. I will use myself as an example.

I grew up in a non-denominational church. This church was as modest as they come: no stained glass windows, a plain room with wooden walls and about 20 or 30 partakers total. We didn’t even have a pastor! Yet God the Holy Spirit was not there and He never was. Satan used his lie of this false Christianity and used my upbringing to start accepting its ideas. When I started getting blasphemous thoughts, he used the lie that I was eternally damned to bring fear into me which led to me partaking in more religious practices in an effort to draw near to God and receive mercy. However since this false brand of Christianity was under the devil who had made the lie, it granted him more control and power over me which led to the blasphemous thoughts and spiritual torment I would later face.

I need to take a moment to hammer this home: This is just ONE example of how a fallen angel led me into deceit. These demons and fallen angels use ALL MANNER of deceit to bring people into captivity. Think of the hundreds of false religions throughout the world; its partakers experience a counterfeit peace and think it is the real deal, living their entire lives in a house that was built on sand. It is not just religion. Nowhere close. Let me give you a list of some of the deceits that we see prevalent in the world today:

– That there is no God
– Conspiracy theories that lead its captives to paranoia
– Health practices like yoga which are seeing a surge, they come from ancient false religions
– Superstitions
– Belief in aliens
– Belief that one race is inherently superior to another: racism
– Extremist beliefs, often leading to violence
– That man can naturally be born homosexual
– Transgenderism
– Hundreds of false religions
– Sex before marriage is acceptable in the eyes of God
– That man is his own master and will save himself
– That sin does not exist
– There is no harm in marijuana nor other recreational drugs

And more. These are broad strokes, but Satan operates on much smaller scales if he needs to. For example, he has sent people to me who uttered a single sentence that he put in their mind to be used against me. This is happening all the time in the many interactions people are having with one another and they are none the wiser for it because they do not know that their thoughts are not always their own. The devil can plant lies and attacks in the people via thoughts to be used against others.

Satan will have you believing that the false ideas implanted into your soul that have led to further corruption are really the truth if you are not equipped with the knowledge of the Lord God.

Every person has demons or fallen angels assigned to them. Those evil spirits constantly plot against the person and tailor-make a plan that will specifically work against that individual. Do you like to do drugs and enjoy a high? Satan will send someone your way with a fatal drug that will lead to overdose. Are you faithful and dutiful? He will lead you into a false religion that appeals to that part of your personality. Are you innately skeptical of authority? You will find conspiracies popping up on your Facebook feed and you will find yourself deep in the rabbit hole before you know it. Do you have a friend or family member whose beliefs differ from yours, or even agrees with a false religion or idea you follow? They, too, will be used to bring you deeper into deceit.

One way to look at it is that these demons’ efforts to destroy man is like a hunt. They are hunters seeking to kill their prey. It is the point of their existence, and nothing brings them more glee to see man destroyed by their wiles and tricks.

So what are we to do? While one should never live in fear, it seems the odds are stacked against us. We are up against fallen angels and demons, powers and principalities who have thousands of years’ worth of experience in sowing deceit and wreaking destruction. Satan is a skilled liar to the point that he has managed to convince a great many people that he does not even exist, along with many of his lies being accepted as common knowledge in the present day and age. How can we possibly outwit these evil forces and defend ourselves?

3: Dealing with demons and fallen angels

To begin rebuffing the devil, we must identify the root of the deception or attack that is being used against us. For those who are in spiritual torment I tell you this: you brought this on yourself due to a lack of knowledge. I say this with no harshness; I brought a severe demonic attack on myself years ago by praying to a false god in ignorance. So ask yourself: what lie did I believe, and what action did I take that has enabled these evil spirits to gain ground over my soul and influence my life to such a serious degree?

The Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth said the truth will set you free. I never understood the significance of those words until I came to the ministry. I suffered a false conversion years ago. When I started counseling with Pastor Pam in 2016, one of the first spiritual gems she dropped on me was the fact that I was not truly born again. By accepting this truth, it allowed my mind to let go of the lie that I was born again and, in due time, enabled Pastor Pam to cure my torment through prayer in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. Lies are overturned with truth, which we should always strive to find. Many of you, like myself, had erroneously partaken in a religion that they thought was Christianity, only to be led astray and in torment like a sick practical joke.

Accepting truth and letting go of lies applies to other matters. It is through thorough research and being logical that we can start to gain a foothold in truth which will then rebuff lies that the devil comes at us with. If lack of knowledge is what destroys God’s people, it is the abundance of knowledge that will gain us victory. So be eager to learn the truth of all things, and do not simply take things at face value. Yet also forgive yourself if you walk into deceit, for it is by making mistakes that we learn.

One example of this that I will give is dreams. Many of the clientele that PSM works with have dreams, both from God and the devil. The ones from the latter are designed to bring the person into deceit. A few years ago, I was jumping rope and doing boxing exercises in the gym. One night, I dreamt that Pastor Pam called me and said, “It looks like you’re training to be a fighter. You should take up martial arts.”

I knew that martial arts employs eastern philosophies and practices in its teachings, and would give ground to the devil. So I kept with what I was doing and stayed content in it; I did not chase after a form of combat that would give the devil more ground over me. I knew that demons have the power to take other forms, so one posed as her in an effort to have me obey them.

In addition to this, demons always use fear to come at the captive. It is fear that gives the demons more access to the person and influence them so we must always be on guard against it. If a captive can manage to break through that fear, they demolish the control of the evil spirits attacking them. In the case of the non-born again, they must be bold. By that, I mean they must be “bulletproof” and willing to walk through the mental bullets firing at them through blasphemous thoughts, visions, physical torment, etc. You ever see the movies where a superhero like Superman or Ironman endures gunfire without a scratch? They don’t even flinch. That’s how one has to be like. Steadfast. Don’t stop your life just for religion’s sake. Keep marching strong! Then, your faith in Christ and your willpower strengthens. Don’t flinch, or buckle, or fret. Keep a cool head against these spiritual attacks and use your free will to act in a manner that is pleasing to the Lord God.

There is sometimes a need for more extreme action to be taken against the devils’ attacks. Some attacks are so serious that it takes prayer and intervention of God. Depending on what it is, He may deal with it by either immediately giving the person relief or leading them on a process of gaining healing over it. This is where counseling comes in, a service that Pastor Pam provides.

Lastly, I encourage the reader to be humble. It takes humility to accept the truth. Sometimes it is not easy to accept that one has been deceived, or that their own thinking has been incorrect and only led to more pain or torment. Yet you should take heart because it is written in the New Testament that God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble. With grace comes healing. Do not hesitate to come to the Lord God in humility. In fact, that is the key to and the beginning of real healing.

Have you been led into lies and deceit by the devil? Do you wish to uncover the truth and gain healing over the spiritual torment that shackles you? Send an email to or call 888-818-1117.

Born Again – George

2 Dec
Come, let us join Christ in the wondrous golden field of flowers!

The Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth is my God and Master and I am His servant, George.

Glory be to the Lord Jesus Christ who showed me mercy and delivered unto me the precious and perfect gift of eternal life in Christ Jesus. I write this text to serve as a documented testimony to the power and glory of the One True God. I pray that I might be given the words that will be pleasurable in His eyes and that they might encourage His sheep to know that their time is coming and that there is much to look forward to.

I was born on November 13th, 1992. Friday the 13th. To a loving mother and father, they would tuck me in bed. And above my head on the wall was a crucifix with a figure of “Jesus” that one sees in paintings, watching over me every night as I slept. I wandered through adolescence and was spoiled as an only child. I would be given gifts and toys with very little resistance from my parents. I even remember being thrown a wonderful birthday party at Chuck E. Cheese, with all of my preschool friends and classmates being invited.

I had the childhood that any young boy would want.

Yet there was an undercurrent to my adolescence and upbringing. It would make itself known loudly by interjecting every Sunday of the week where I would find myself in a plain looking room with rows of red chairs lined up next to each other: church. My father had been going to a non-denominational church since his 20s and, having met a previously-Catholic woman in my mother who claimed to belong to Jesus Christ, wanted to raise me in it. They would bring me and sit me down next to them where the congregation would sing hymns and read from the Bible. The elders in the church would take turns leading its members in prayer and the breaking of bread and drinking of wine.

My religious upbringing manifested in the same way that the Christian subculture in America has been instructing its members to worship for the past few decades: pray every day and read your Bible. I would pray before my meals and before bed. I did not read much on my own time, concluding that I could learn from my church. During the summers, my mother and father would send me to Bible School, a recreational program where the children would engage in the same activities as church as well as more kid-oriented ones like water balloon fights. I engaged in all of this out of obligation and instruction, but running around with the other kids and doing art projects with them as a child was fun.

One day I experienced a moment with my father which would shape and mold me with fear and misunderstanding for the large majority of my life: I walked into his room and there he was, reading his Bible. My dad was my hero and I always loved to spend time with him.

“Dad, what are you reading?” I asked.

“Mmmm….I probably shouldn’t show you this, but here,” he said.

I leaned over and looked at the text. It was the passage about the unpardonable sin, where the Lord Jesus Christ rebuked the Pharisees and told them there would be no forgiveness in blaspheming the Holy Spirit. Fear settled into me and I hurried out the room. As I lay in bed readying for sleep, a barrage of blasphemous thoughts came battering into my mind like a storm of arrows raining on its target. The horrifying reality sunk in: I had damned myself by committing the unpardonable sin and I was damned for all eternity. Fearful and sad, I chose not to say anything to my father and went to sleep.

For the next 10+ years, I quietly struggled with fear about the unpardonable sin under the assumption that I was damned forever. It would most often creep into my mind as I lay in bed alone at night, as a fear of hell would settle in. My experience with the church during this stretch of time is a story for another time as I expedite to God’s glorious redemption of me.

It was in April of 2016 that I met Pastor Pamela Sheppard. I got to know her and she got to know me. She showed me wisdom, guidance, and patience as she worked on various issues that I had in my own soul. We built a great relationship as she taught me about God and what it is to be a Christian. We spoke on a weekly basis for the better part of the next 4 years. One of the first things she taught me was that I never had really committed the unpardonable sin and that in my early 20s I experienced a false conversion. For those who do not know, a false conversion is a fraudulent born again experience wherein the recipient is shown heavenly things to make them think they are born again, yet they are actually are not.

Pastor Pam and I dealt with a myriad of spiritual issues: intrusive thoughts, fear of hell, confrontations with fallen angels, etc. She taught me that God saves His people at His own timing. I learned about the corruption and infiltration of religion and the churches across America and the world. I learned more about Who Jesus Christ really was and what He does for his people. I learned how to stand in truth and rebuff demons and fallen angels who come to bother, torment, distract and destroy the children of God. I learned how to counsel others in spiritual warfare. It gave me an unbelievably strong foundation and understanding of what it meant to stand firm. It taught me how to stick up for yourself against these vast forces of evil running to and fro across the earth, running circles around the people on it due to the same reason God said His people are destroyed: their lack of knowledge.

Yet as time went on, I wondered, why am I not born again yet? God would show me my true character and sin in dreams: arrogance, pride, highmindedness, vanity, ego and more. And as I persisted, Satan would come and try to use me against Pastor Pam and her ministry and it was revealed that I had a huge, dark fallen angel assigned to me who would insert blasphemous thoughts into my mind on a regular basis. He would also set up various situations in my own life to lead me into deceit and come to me with thoughts and dreams that seemed to be from God, but were designed to destroy me.

On top of this, I struggled with a number of my own issues due to my nature: anxiety, stress, guilt, fear and even suicidal thoughts. Beyond this, I also had a myriad of personality traits that was harmful to both me and others. I was prone to getting offended easily due to my high ego and was also vindictive against anyone who crossed me. I had narcissistic traits which was evident by thinking of myself higher than others, requiring and wanting excessive admiration, envy of others and more.

I had made a lot of headway over the years in terms of working on my soul and character. But I felt like I was reaching a breaking point: I had so much stress to the point that my heart rate jumped by 25+ beats and I felt a constant pain in my chest. Meanwhile, I was coming to terms with the fact that I was lukewarm towards the things of God and the ministry. I became like I was in church: attending out of obligation and putting on my smile that looked pleasing on the surface, yet no feeling or love in my heart as I said whatever pretty words I knew sounded pleasurable to fit in.

I remember painting one day when my spirit spoke to me and showed me the overarching attitude I had towards life: apathy. Sheer, pure apathy towards everything. The microexpression on my face that defined me was one where my lips would droop, betraying my innermost feelings: indifference towards life. I simply did not care about much. I was like the tinman from the Wizard of Oz: I could help others and even banter with them and they would like me, but I had no heart.

Fast forward to 2020 and I had moved to New York for a new job, living near Pastor Pam. My birthday, November 13, once again on a Friday the 13th like my birth date was nearing. I told her that I would like to spend some time with her and other members of the ministry for my birthday. She agreed and after my shift at work, I drove an hour and a half up to Albany for the night.

I arrived and Pastor Pam ushered me in and we engaged in pleasantries and discussion about the new job and the cultural climate of the United States. Shortly after, Abbi and Evan – two workers of Pam Sheppard Ministries – arrived and welcomed me. They were all so kind to me, buying my favorite flavored cake of red velvet for me and getting some Chinese food that I liked. We had a pleasant meal and moved to the living room where we had a discussion about God.

Pam looked at me and after having a conversation, decided to begin a prayer for me.

I must be honest: I had not assumed that anything immediate would happen from this prayer. I had been prayed for before, especially to be born again, and it had not happened yet.

“Father God, I come to you on behalf of George,” she began.

Sitting there on her couch with my head bowed, I listened.

“God, you had put it on my mind today that George might be born again today,” she proclaimed boldly.

Those words hit my spirit like a gut punch.

“What?!” I shouted out. I was dumbfounded. Because as she said those words, I began to have a spiritual and emotional experience so joyous and glorious that it will stay deep in my heart, soul and spirit for the rest of eternity in pure joy over the Lord Jesus Christ. And as she spoke, I was beginning to experience the presence of God in the spirit.

She continued to pray for me and from the deepest recesses of my soul, I began to sob and weep. I could feel my chest swell up and the sound of my voice in a deep cry as God showed me who I really was: a pitiful, wretched and decrepit sinner. A repugnant and putrid pile of sin, disgusting and shameful. This spiritual revelation hit my soul and I could not believe what a pathetic human being I was. I make no exaggeration when I state that in that moment I felt like less than a worm in the earth. My friends, what I was experiencing was the beginning of Godly sorrow.

And as I sat there weeping and in the spirit, I suddenly found myself inside the earth. I was experiencing what it was like to be a piece of dirt in the earth: dead and dirty. Yet in a moment, I saw a glorious, great, big hand reach out towards me. And it touched me. The moment it did, I experienced in the spirit what it is to be born again. The hand touched me and while I was a piece of dirt in the earth, I instantly bloomed into a flower and experienced life for the first time.

And as I blossomed into the earth, in the spirit I saw my surroundings. I was in a beautiful field of flowers, yellow and gold. And near me was a Figure in a robe. It was at this point that I witnessed the Resurrected Jesus Christ of Nazareth before my very eyes. I was in awe at what I saw, my mouth gaping open and my eyes shot wide open with tears running down them and my fingers cupping my face in amazement.

It is at this point where I will try to do my best to explain what I experienced, but words cannot truly justify the glory, awe, and perfection that I saw in the spirit. Nonetheless, here goes.

God began to impart unto me a spiritual experience where I realized I was finally alive through the Lord Jesus Christ and I experienced emotions in the spirit that transcends anything we can experience in the physical realm. I felt a deep, Godly love strong within my spirit, sobering me. As God interacted with me, I felt a glowing warmth emanating from His perfect Body. The closest I can explain it is to try and imagine as if you were right next to the sun, but it didn’t hurt, it just nourished you and gave you life. There was a sense of holy and heavenly light coming from Him an it was glorious.

I began to receive understanding from God in my spirit the various parts of His character that has been written about: He is merciful. He is kind. He is loving. Here stood the God Who created all things on earth and life itself standing before me in an intimate moment between just us two to make a statement: I love you, George. I died for you and your sins, and I rose again so that you may have life. The Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth is a God of honor and justice and here I was, approximately 2,000 years after He ascended to heaven. I was seeing Him do what He always said He would: that He came so that His sheep would have life, and have it abundantly.

As I received my new birth and experienced the Resurrected Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth, I began to cry out in the physical realm.

“WHAT MERCY! WHAT KINDNESS!” I bellowed out. The glory of what I was witnessing was so astonishing that I could not help but cry out as the greatness of what I was seeing was awe-inspiring.

Love, happiness and joy began to flow through me. These were Godly emotions that sunk deep into my soul.

“FOR ME? FOR ME?” I both questioned and exclaimed at the same time. I was in complete and utter awe that God had taken time out of HIS day to bring me NEW LIFE. To bring me JOY. To bring me HAPPINESS. To DELIVER me from my sins. To reach into the dirt where I was a dead, pathetic pile of sin and with a simple touch bring me life for all of eternity in the safe and secure presence of GOD. On my own birthday, the Lord Jesus Christ showed me kindness and mercy as He graciously translated me from the kingdom of darkness into His kingdom of light.

As my time with God in the spirit continued, I began to experience His Body. Flowing from Him was the anointing of the Holy Spirit and it was made known to me several things about God. I experienced and felt His Perfection and Glory. I felt a warm glow from Him of Holiness. And lastly, I learned that He was POWERFUL and INVINCIBLE. I experienced His power in the spirit and I could feel in the spirit that His Body was invincible. I could make no exaggeration of this if I tried: a nuclear bomb could touch the Risen God and it would bounce right off him like a pitiful plaything. The glory of such knowledge dawned on me and I continued shouting out in glory and praise of God.

The chains of my soul have been broken and snapped into nothingness through the power of the Lord Jesus Christ.

I opened my eyes. My vision was blurry, with tears flowing through them. I peeked them open between my fingers and looked around the room. Straight ahead of me was Pastor Pamela Sheppard. The tears and weeping of sorrow I had experienced a mere moment ago had transformed into tears of joy and sounds of deep laughter as I realized what was happening. I was laughing like a manic man, relieved and ecstatic that the Lord Jesus Christ is risen.

“You are my mother!” I yelled out to her. She, Abbi and Evan began to laugh in joy as they partook in my new birth.

“You are my brother. You are my sister,” I said to Abbi and Evan. They smiled at me as we shared in happiness together.

I looked around the room and in the spirit I saw that it was a delivery room, with surgical equipment around like you see in the hospital. My legs felt heavy, like I was walking for the first time. My eyes could see and it was like I was seeing for the first time. Near us I saw what appeared to be a small crowd of people with a cloud enveloping them, saints.

To my friends reading this who are waiting on God: take courage. As Pastor Pam has said before me, as Evan has said before me and as Abbi has said before me, I echo their message: No amount of sin, evil or wrongdoing is too much for God. I was so pathetic in my old state that in my rebirth experience God likened me to the dirt of the earth. Here are some definitions of dirt:

  1. Any foul or filthy substance, as mud, grime, dust, or excrement.
  2. Something or someone vile, mean, or worthless.
  3. Moral filth; vileness; corruption.

Who among you, when walking over the earth and ground, pays attention to the dirt and worms being crushed underneath their feet? Yet God in his infinite and vast glory, mercy and peace took this piece of dirt, touched it and had it grow and blossom into a beautiful flower. Here are the definitions of what it is to bloom:

  1. to produce or yield flowers
  2. to mature into achievement of one’s potential
  3. to flourish in youthful beauty, freshness, or excellence
  4. to shine out : glow

I am still in awe that He actually gave me the perfect gift of eternal life on my birthday. What a loving and kind God He is. I am now His. Any and all imperfections in me have been made perfect by His Spirit that dwelleth within me.

Since then, I am at peace. Godly peace. Things like arrogance, pride, ego are distant from me as I crucify my flesh to instead walk in the Spirit. I can look at the old George and rebuke his fleshly temptations and desire for sin. I can use the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ in prayer to worship God, rebuke fallen angels and demons and strengthen me. I have experienced joy and happiness to a degree I never have before all thanks to the Lord. God took my sin and deadness of spirit, squashed it into nothing, and gave me eternal life.

There is more to come. There will be other pieces of dirt and sin who will blossom and be with Christ in that beautiful field of flowers ‘til the end of the age unto all eternity. We have a lot to look forward to. The Day will come when He descends unto the earth and rules it with an iron rod, where all will know that Jesus Christ is GOD. Please Lord Jesus, carry out Your will on earth for your children and lead them in Your plans as the Day of the Lord nears. I echo John from the Book of Revelation and the cry of all children of Christ on earth: come, Lord Jesus. All glory be to Your Perfect and Holy Name, the Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth.

How Evil Spirits Use Sleep Paralysis to Create Fear

7 Apr

I was sleeping the other night when I found myself sitting up, trembling with fear. This was not a natural kind of fear but a supernatural one where I was paralyzed. I looked across my room and felt a very evil presence but saw nothing. It was like a fog of terror was throughout the room and even though it was around 5 in the morning, somehow, the room grew even darker. Have you ever seen the Twilight Zone? In that show, the lighting of a scene will change dramatically as the characters experience some kind of twist in their supernatural/unexplainable adventure. That was the kind of effect going on in my room, a sudden darkness and haze. This clip here more or less shows the hazy quality of what was happening.

I could sense a demon was there by a penetrating aura of evil and maliciousness hanging in the air. I could also tell he was orchestrating this occurrence, like a small hurricane forming and swirling around him anywhere he went. He communicated with me but it wasn’t with words. My memory eludes me as to how exactly, but he “told” me in some kind of supernatural way (either through my mind or in the spirit) that he was going to come kill me at 1 pm the next day.

After he said that, I felt a slapping sensation against the back of my head causing me to jolt up from the pillow like you may have experienced after waking up from a nightmare. I looked around the room and things were back to normal; I realized I had been dreaming. I also realized that the demon was replicating my current circumstances so that when I woke up, I would stay fearful that he was still there to haunt me. Fallen angels and demons thrive off of making people fearful; it allows them greater control in controlling the person. After a few moments, I said aloud that I wasn’t afraid of the evil spirit.


I had this happen to me once before. I was sleeping in an office on a couch. A devilish, brutish entity rushed out from behind a desk opposite the couch then jumped on me and terrorized me. When I woke up, I was in the same room and the circumstances were similar. It’s a little trick demons play on people to keep them in a state of fear after they wake up. By mimicking your current, real-life circumstances, they’re ingraining a thought that they’re always around to hunt you down. Outside of that, throughout my life I have had times where I felt like I was fighting paralysis while sleeping and barely able to move, but usually not with a demonic figure terrorizing me.

The occurrences I’ve experienced are known as a phenomena called sleep paralysis. Sleep paralysis usually contains 3 elements that characterize it: 1) An inability to move major muscles. People often can only move their eyes, fingers, toes, and facial muscles, if anything. 2) The presence of a demonic, strange, and/or evil figure. It is often sitting on the person’s chest or at the edge of the bed, watching them ominously. 3) a (supernatural) feeling of horror. These occurrences have been recorded throughout history as far back as 400 BC and across all different countries and cultures. The following famous painting is dated back to the 1700’s and depicts someone experiencing it:


In reality, sleep paralysis is a ploy used by demons to terrorize the victim and put them in a state of bondage by living in fear. It is often accompanied with a sense of dread and/or the spirit communicates that it will kill the victim at a certain time.

The next day at that time was when I was supposed to speak with Pastor Pam Sheppard on a regularly scheduled pastoral counseling session. Pastor Pam has run into a number of clients, many of who are mentally ill, who continually heeded these warnings and lived in fear because of them. That is the goal of the demons using these ploys: to torment the victim and keep them in fear, thereby weakening them.

I have faced demonic-induced fears during my time in RESCUE and have been able to overcome them through counseling with Pastor Pam. One of the core foundational teachings that I was taught in RESCUE is knowing the enemy and learning how they operate. Because my counseling sessions taught me that demons use fear to control their victims, I was able to quickly discard my recent experience and move forward without fear.


If you have had any demonic experiences wherein they work to create fear in your life, complete the contact form below if you seek help. Or you can call and ask for Pastor Pam at 888-818-1117