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Free From Demonic Torment

1 Feb

A personal testimony from a RESCUE member on her journey to deliverance and freedom in Christ. 

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From birth to the age of 16, i was raised in a catholic home. It wasn’t a strict catholic upbringing but we went to mass every Sunday, participated in Bible Study and confession regularly. My catholic life was dry for the most part, the only time i had a supernatural experience was one time i had to go do my confession to a priest in order for the church to give me the sacrament of confirmation which was to signify that i have been filled with the Holy Spirit and now worthy to receive the body & blood of Jesus which was the wafer and wine offered during mass.

I was dreading my walk to the church due to a number of reasons, first, I was naturally a fearful person, the church was also located in a neighborhood that wasn’t very safe, i remember my heart racing and a strong urge to not go for the confession but i thought that was the devil deterring me from being filled by the Holy Spirit. I went to the church and confessed my sins, even during confession, i lied and made up sins that i didn’t even do. The priest told me to repeat the hail mary & the Lord’s prayer several times and he declared me absolutely clean. I felt this amazing sense of peace and joy. The girl walking back home was confident and happy and sure that she had received the Holy Ghost, the truth is i didn’t by a simple teaching from Jesus, “you shall know them by their fruits.” 

My feelings of joy and peace didn’t last long, there was no substantial change in my spiritual life, it was still dry and full of rituals. My fear increased greatly. I resigned myself to thinking this is how spiritual life is, many adults weren’t living holy as they claimed. I was initially exposed to hypocrisy in the church while being catholic, it used to bother me that the “spiritual giants” used to gossip and be mean to fellow church goers. I was a child and raised not to question adults so i kept this question to myself and remained troubled over it.

FALSE CONVERSION

In 2000, I was 16 and in high school where a church group visited and we were shown an “End time” movie. They later explained how many will be be-headed and suffer when they miss the rapture. We were also threatened with the prospect of dying & going to hell, where people burn forever. I panicked and rushed forward to say the sinner’s prayer which was supposed to allow Jesus to enter my heart and seal me with eternal life in heaven. I thought I received Jesus Christ of Nazareth but red flags started popping up immediately.

  1. First red flag was that I started suffering from sexual thoughts about Jesus, the thoughts felt like a blow to my mind, I would fight back to stop the thought from continuing. I suffered in silence, very embarrassed and thought i was a very lustful person. I cried for forgiveness constantly hoping God wont be angry with me.
  2. Second red flag was the constant cuss words in my mind directed towards God the Father and the Holy Spirit. One time during a prayer meeting, i felt a strong force pushing me to open my mouth and hurl obscenities, i held my mouth tight, waiting anxiously for the meeting to end so i can run out.
  3. I got a dream where i was surrounded by strange looking creatures, in the dream i realized they were demons and all of them stared at me intently, they all looked ready to attack especially one that looked like an anaconda. I wondered why they didn’t attack, but as i looked out the corner of my right eye, i saw a man dressed in white. I thought that was Jesus of Nazareth protecting me but during my counselling it became evident to me that dream was showing me the fake Jesus and his demons who have entered my life.

TORMENT

I was always a fearful person and this increased after getting “saved.” Every night i would perform a ritual of anointing myself, the bed, and room before i slept. I was afraid of death, torture, nightmares and demons attacking me while i slept. Listening to worship songs, sermons and anointing the vicinity gave some comfort but the results were short lived. I started taking sleeping pills after a family tragedy to try and get some sleep but my sleep pattern was ruined, i suffered from insomnia and constant fatigue.

Things took a turn for the worse in 2004 when I was asleep alone in my room and a spirit touched my private part. I woke up in complete shock, it felt like a complete invasion of privacy, I wasn’t safe in my own home. All the doors were locked, the windows were shut but yet i was attacked. My fear grew tremendously because the demons taunting me made me know there was more to come. I didn’t share this with anyone because i never heard other people suffering from this. I felt ashamed, embarrassed, and felt sad for myself, wondering who could help me, i prayed, read the bible, went to church but baffled as to why this was happening. I engaged in a lot of prayer meetings where we would recite Cindy Trimm prayers from her book, binding demons and releasing angels. I would feel pumped after a prayer session but as always, the feelings were short lived.

I was filled with anxiety before going to bed, making sure i slept with the lights on, slept in certain positions, played christian music hoping that i wouldst get sexually or physically assaulted. All the while i showed other people that i was as normal as i can be, yet i was falling apart on the inside.

In 2013/2014 the night visits became weekly and the demons were becoming more bold in their attacks, I’ve been slapped and had my private parts fondled. I suffered from sleep paralysis as well. By mid 2014 i finally acknowledged i was in trouble as the years of torment were adding up, also the attacks were getting more frequent and more deadly. I started to feel my mind slip and knew if i don’t get help soon, the situation will turn critical. 

HOW I MET PAM SHEPPARD

I was restless, i could feel i was at a turning point in my life, a feeling like i was at the edge and almost about to fall off. I listened to more TD Jakes sermons, then moved to G Craige Lewis. My thinking was to combat demonic attacks with more religious ritual, i was so blind and couldn’t see that the more i engaged in religion, the worse the attacks became. I wrongly thought that the rituals – reading the bible, listening to sermons & christian music helped lessen the intensity of these attacks, if i stopped them, the attacks would become much worse. I was completely blind!

I always searched various christian topics on the web, i literally stumbled on Pam Sheppard’s blog and the topic was on sexual acts that would defile a marriage. I found her take on the topic interesting and it led me to read more topics she had covered on her blog. As i read her blogs about the Institutional Church (I.C.) having been taken over by fallen angels, i was shocked yet intrigued because she was answering all the questions i had while being in the church. 

Through reading more posts from Pastor Pam i found a video she did on “Spirit Rape” where she spoke on women experiencing visitation from spirits which would engage in sexual acts with them, she finished the video by saying if this is happening to you, you are not born again. I tried to ignore the last part but the torment caused me to realize something is terribly wrong and its time to get some answers. I knew my time to face the truth had arrived.

EMOTIONS

For the longest time i struggled with low self esteem. I would cry for no reason and always find something to worry about and when the situation was resolved, i would look for the next issue to stress about. My emotions were determined by outside factors and other people, i bought into the labels society, family and church gave me.

Growing up in Africa as a black person, my ethnicity was never an issue. I never felt inferior as a black person. I knew what the world thinks of Africa and Africans in general but it never affected me in my day to day life. When i moved to North America, i felt my blackness and it wasn’t good, i felt inferior and any incident where someone would be rude or dismissive would affect me greatly since i wanted other people to validate me since i had no identity.

i was chained to standards set by other people e.g. Ethnic stereotypes, church views that women can’t be pastors, a woman is not valuable to society if she is not married or have children. My bias against women pastors almost led me not to listen to Pam but i stayed and listened because my torment was greater than my opinions and it humbled me to a point i was ready to listen and i thank God for making it that way otherwise my pride would have made me walk away.

DELIVERANCE PROCESS

Before i started my counselling sessions with Pam, i thought deliverance was a pastor shouting at a demon to come out as the captive manifests and rolls on the ground shouting. My view on deliverance was very different from what it really is. I watched several of Pastor Pam’s videos and read her blogs, after a couple of days i sent her an email stating that I felt i had a false conversion and needed help. I filled out a Deliverance form which helped me go down memory lane in my life and it helped me through the counselling process as Pam could look through the forms and see the doorways I had opened to the demons that were harassing me.

I learnt lot and discovered that i had a false conversion  which we broke. My will was weak and passive and needed to be built up. I also learnt of ancestral demons that affect people of African background and how to break any covenants that i would have been a part of. My biggest challenge was to stop religious rituals that i was used to, but my desire to be free was greater and the more i learnt, the more i saw what i was doing was putting me in more danger. 

Pam has a huge resource through the blogs, videos, books, phone sessions and the online ministry group which i am a part of. All of these have helped me overcome so many strongholds. 

RESCUE

As the Psalmist says Psalm 18:29 With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall. That has been my experience with Pam Sheppard and RESCUE. I learnt how to break my false conversion, build up my free will and not allow my emotions to control my actions. Views that held me in chains for years have been broken, i know my value and i get my identity from me, not what outsiders say. I have learnt my personality and know myself better than i have in years which has led to better decision making. I have learnt how to distinguish a spiritual issue from a non-spiritual issue. The torment i suffered for years has stopped! The shame i felt was removed when i realized i had been tricked into worshiping the fake Jesus and others have suffered the same issues i faced. I’m gaining a respect for God, something i never had while religious, i look back and see he has been guiding and protecting me even when i was an idolater. I have seen God’s mercy and compassion firsthand when he led me to Pam Sheppard, his faithful servant. I have gained so much yet i am thrilled because there is more to come, I am now waiting to be born again which will happen at the Holy Spirit’s timing.

Jesus warns his people in Rev 18:4 Come out of her, my people, lest you share in her sins and lest you receive her plagues.

I have single handedly seen and experienced the plagues in the Institutional Church, my story shows God`s mercy towards to me because even though i was suffering from the plagues, i still couldn’t see that being in the I.C. was the problem. God lifted the veil during my counselling process and i finally understood why i was suffering and why i had to leave. I walk in freedom now and can fully relate to Jesus words that, `you will know the truth and it will make you free.
If you are in torment and need counselling, fill the contact form below.

Eddie Long & the Church

15 Jan

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Eddie Long declared that he was back and healed at his church during his pastoral anniversary service on Oct. 9, 2016. He also asked for church members to move forward to the pulpit and receive healing so that he could lay his hands on them. . It has now been announced that Eddie has passed away today and it was from an aggressive form of cancer. His death  will probably leave many church goers puzzled, disillusioned and needing answers wondering does God still heal? does deliverance & the power of God still exist? Why was Eddie not healed even when he claimed he was as the prosperity gospel teaches? 

Deliverance, healing still occurs, people are even becoming born again BUT this is not happening in the church but outside of Her.

In Re. 18;4, the Lord Himself declared “Come Out of Her, My People.” my pastor, Pam Sheppard challenges the elect of God  to ask themselves 3 simple questions concerning the Lord’s warning, as follows:

1.  Where are “God’s People?”

Could the scriptures be referring to a particular nation or country? No. God’s people are in every nation. Even though America claims to be a Christian, people of diverse persuasions can agree on this one point, namely, that America is really NOT a Christian nation.  Let’s face it. The universal place where God’s people assemble for worship is “in the organized church.” It’s the only place that makes sense. In this day and time, without a passport and finances, who can walk out of their native country very easily and re-locate elsewhere? In truth, mass exodus from anywhere today is practically impossible. Jesus would not command us to do the impossible.

However, anywhere in the world, we can come out of the organized church by simply no longer attending.

2.  What generation of God’s people is Jesus speaking to?

Most of the book of Revelation is about the end of the church age. If the 7 churches in the book of Revelation represent chronological symbols of church ages throughout history, then Jesus is talking to the final generation, the church at Laodicea.  It’s a no-brainer that no other church era on earth could top our own generation in a claim to be “rich and in need of nothing.” (Revelation 3:17)

3.   Are we at the end of the church age?

For all intents and purposes, if we are the church at Laodicea, where those who preach the prosperity gospel actually DO brag on how rich they are, spiritual blindness is clearly and undeniably rampant. When churchgoers haven’t a clue as to the meaning of repentance, rebirth and the resurrection and therein believe that they are saved but they are not, what could be a stronger sign that “we are near or even at the end of the church age?

So if you answer in the affirmative to all 3 questions, then Jesus has spoken to YOU! He is warning you at this very moment to come out of the organized church, and if you don’t, you are going to receive of her plagues.  You don’t have to be a bible scholar, a prophet or even a rocket scientist to answer these 3 questions. Once you have your answer, then if you are a true believer in Jesus Christ, you will know, without a shadow of a doubt that you must “come out of Her.”

In a nutshell, ONE primary reason stands out above all others that should be enough for the elect to decide to come out of Her. It’s because fallen angels—religious devils—have infiltrated the entire church system. Certainly, they have no part in the true Body of Christ because the real “church” is not a building made with hands. However, through compromise and doctrinal distortions of all kinds, there is an invisible, imposter god undergirding every edifice, regardless of how sincere and faithful the leadership.

Consequently, if you are unknowingly worshiping an imposter, then you are unknowingly practicing idolatry and breaking the 10 Commandments. The punishment for idolatry is a release of the curses or “the plagues.” (Deuteronomy 28) When judgment falls, churchgoers will not be able to find the secret place of the Most High, nor abide under the shadow of the Almighty. Paul warned the Corinthians that they should “flee fornication.” In the spirit, fornication is idolatry. In the words of Klein and Spears in their book “Devils and Demons,” these co-authors offer the elect some sober and sound advice:

We need to run, not walk—-as fast as we can and as far away as we can get—from any devils and demons that masquerade as our great God of the Universe.”

Putting my interpretation of who actually is “Her” of Revelation 18:4, I have also considered several other scriptures in both testaments. For example, in the old testament, whenever the Father referred to the idolatry of the children of Israel, He used symbols of gender, with Himself as masculine and His people as feminine. In fact, God command the prophet Hosea to marry an adulterous woman to stand as a metaphorical comparison of Himself and the children of Israel’s practicing the religions of heathen nations. (Hosea 1:1-3)

Similarly, Jesus is the metaphorical Bridegroom while the elect—His people—are the Bride. In both testaments, idolatry is synonymous with fornication or sex outside of marriage. When God’s people practiced a false religion, it is written that they “went a whoring.” In the new testament, the Lord chided the first church at Ephesus with a gender based reproach when He warned “you have lost your first love.” (Rev.2:4) In response to the idolatry in the church at Thyatira, the Lord declared yet another gender based statement with “I’ll cast you into a bed and them that commit adultery with her into great tribulation, except they repent of their deeds. (Rev. 2:20-22)

There are several more examples that in themselves could be the subject of a book or two, particularly “the Songs of Solomon.” In keeping with the biblical pattern, it stands to reason that in our times, the “Her” of Revelation 18:4 is an idolatrous religion practiced predominately behind church walls.

Playing the devil’s advocate with yet another question posed in an attempt to try the spirits to see if they be of God, I asked myself the following questions: : Suppose I am completely wrong and I have absolutely misinterpreted the scriptures and the “Her” in Revelation
18:4 is really NOT the organized church? To that, my response is “I will have lost nothing because I gained absolutely nothing from the church except error and deception.”

More telling words from Pastor Pam:

As I look back in order to present my decades of spiritual history within a well known denominational system,” chapters 2 to 6 will progressively unfold that not only did the organized church have nothing at all to do with my salvation or my spiritual edification, but in fact, the entire religious system served as an enemy to my soul. A root in dry ground, I did more than merely survive. Showered with God’s grace and mercy, I actually thrived in a dark, un-nurturing place— a spiritually dangerous, hostile spiritual environment. If God Himself had not been on my side, I am convinced that I would have withered on the vine and died—spirit, soul and body.

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At our ministry, we believe in healing and deliverance.  Yet we are also aware of and vigilant to try the spirits, because in these end times, fake healings and deliverances shall be rampant.  If you need to be assured of the difference, complete the contact form blow:

 

The Habit of Catastrophizing

15 Aug

Catastrophizing is a mental health term. It is an irrational thought a lot of us have in believing that something is far worse than it actually is. Catastrophizing can generally can take two forms.

The first of these is making a catastrophe out of a situation. This kind of Catastrophizing takes a current situation and gives it a truly negative “spin.” For example, my mother assumed that my life was over because I had surgery. Deep down, she hoped that I would not be able to swim again and she thought my life was over. the truth is that my new hip is now the strongest part of my body and I have not an a ounce of pain in it.

The second kind of Catastrophizing is closely linked to the first, but it is more mental and more future oriented.This kind of Catastrophizing occurs when we look to the future and anticipate all the things that are going to go wrong. We then create a reality around those thoughts (e.g. “It’s bound to all go wrong for me…”). Because we believe something will go wrong, the enemy helps us to make it go wrong.

Falling prey to Catastrophizing is often connected to a demon of fear. Both of these types of Catastrophizing limit your opportunities in life, work, relationships and more. It can affect our entire outlook in life, and create a self-fulfilling prophecy of failure, disappointment and underachievement.

Both may lead you to self-pity, to an irrational, negative belief about any situation, and to a feeling of hopelessness about your future prospects. Further, both of these types of Catastrophizing will define either the presence or absence of alternative possibilities, and possibly paralyze you from going further with efforts toward your goals in life.

I am one who always has options and if I can’t find one, I wait on God to create one.

For example,If I was one who catstrophized, RESCUE would not exist. the truth is that I Was a preacher for 25 years who suddenly found herself without a church home. I did not go running to a different denomination even before I received the revelation that the enemy has all pulpits under his belt.

As quiet as I keep it, church experience as a pastor was horrific for me.I don’t even discuss some of the low down things that happened to me as a pastor, at the hands of the sheep. Yet I am I n here, trusting myself to you guys, not worried that any one of you is going to put me down permanently for the count.

Do you catastrophize?

The Fallacies of Deliverance Ministry

23 Jul

In this post we address the issue of Deliverance ministries in a Q&A format:-

1.In  your estimation, what would you say you do that is different from what is currently being done in deliverance ministries inside of the church?

Deliverance sessions in the Institutional Church are characterized by a deliverance worker shouting at demons to leave a person who can be seen rolling on the ground, coughing or vomiting. Some don’t have physical reactions but believe that once the pastor has prayed and laid hands on them they are delivered only to discover a few days or weeks later they are still suffering from the same issues. Deliverance ministries in the church don’t work because:-
A. a person could be seeking deliverance from an issue that isn’t spiritual e.g. spirit of not having a spouse – this is not a spiritual issue that requires deliverance.
B. The deliverance worker might have no power to cast out demons, because they are not born again.
C. Demons prefer to remain silent and control a persons life without being noticed; if a demon starts making noise for a long period of time making the person jerk back and forth, its probably mocking the deliverance worker and the person being prayed for.
D. The I.C. has been taken over by the fallen angels and religious demons – one clear sign of this is the “i accept Jesus” doctrine or easy believism. This has produced false conversions rather than true born again experiences.

The deliverance counselling we do is to help the person be free and healed. Everything one has been taught and believed is challenged, false teachings are exposed and discarded and the person learns the truth. Detox from religion is highly recommended, one has to clear their mind from error. Truth will cause demons to leave a person as they lose ground every time someone hears and accepts the truth.

The counselling method also helps one become more self aware, you will be able to distinguish what is spiritual and what isn’t. You learn how to use your free will and most importantly you will be clear on whether you have a false conversion or a true born again experience. Deliverance is no quick fix, it takes time and the person seeking deliverance needs to put in work to get results, a session with a pastor screaming at demons to get out will not cut it.

2. Is it only your professional background that separates and distinguishes the ministry that you provide?

I am different not just because of my professional background but my stand on various topics just to mention a few e.g. While many would consider the institutional church the house of God, it is clear to me that it is the evil tree Jesus spoke of in his parable. The Jesus worshiped in most churches today is a fallen angel and not the true God. The I.C. produces a lot of false converts and very few if none born again believers.

3.You seem to have a core group of people you work with, making it simpler for you to hone in on the believer’s conversion experience, much like what is happening in the four walls of the church but the church is a larger scale.

Is this discipleship what your ministry is all about?

I highly doubt the ability of churches to hone in one a believers conversion experience, most churches are about numbers and even for the few churches that are sincere they cant really help their congregations because of the strong delusion in most churches. Many church goers believe they are saved and born again when they are not. Our focus is not creating disciples but to expose the darkness, bring people out of deception, deliver them from demonic torment and help them stand in truth.

Please visit this page http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/pam_s911 there are two books that you will find of great value to answer your questions on deliverance ministries and the Institutional church.
Be Delivered From Deliverance Ministries & The Church of the End Time Zombies: A Guide to Religious Detox.

Spirit Guides are Fallen Angels

10 Jul
SELP HELP OR SELF DESTRUCT?

Fallen angels have not only infiltrated the Institutional Church, they also have a hand in personal development & self-help teachings. Take for example Napoleon Hill, he is considered the father of the positive thinking movement.

In the book (Think & Grow Rich) he taught people that they need to be disciplined, work hard, find like minded business people,have goals & plan. Sounds like good advice for people seeking material gain but in addition to that he taught new age principles. He was well acquainted with ascended masters (fallen angels). Knowing this, it is clear that the real motive of the fallen angels was to gain access to people under the guise of “self help”.

Some of his teachings include:-.

  1. Visualization (visualize money and you will get it). We know that visualization is a way to enter into an altered state of consciousness and a way of opening one’s chakras which leads to the person being demonized.Some churches teach visualization to their congregations; irony is people go to churches thinking they are safe but the “man of God” they look up to and trust leads them to invite a legion of demons into their lives.
  2. Telepathy to reach great historical minds & invisible beings – the truth is those who practice this are not reaching “great historical minds” but they are unknowingly contacting demons.
  3. He says his book is not meant to interfere with people’s religion and he doesn’t refer to God, uses new age terminology such as infinite intelligence.
  4. He used to teach auto-suggestion which his followers say it appears to be nothing more than magical secret incantations to obtain wealth and develop relationships.

Napoleon does mention that he did contact an Ascended Master, as seen in an excerpt from his book “Grow Rich with Peace of Mind”

p. 162 “I finished this book. I was alone in my study and all was very still. A voice spoke. I saw nobody. I cannot tell you whence the voice came…..
“I have come,” said the voice, “to give you one more section to include in your book….
I whispered; “Who are you?” In a softened voice, which sounded like chimes of great music, the unseen speaker replied: “I come from the Great School of the Masters. I am one of the Council of Thirty Three who serve the Great School and its initiates on the physical plane.”
He said “And now I shall name the enemies who must be met and conquered in the journey… “The foremost is fear……intolerance, egotism, lust, anger and hatred – a total of 26 enemies. …”Know that one who seeks earnestly to conquer these twenty six lurking enemies becomes an Initiate of the Great School. We know him, and he has access to the mind of a Master……….”
“The voice ended. I began to hear little sounds of the world around me, and I knew the Master had returned to the Great School of the Masters.”

Pam already blew the cover of these ascended masters in The Fake Jesus as nothing more than fallen angels. Get a copy of this revelation today at http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/pam_s911

Be wary of self help books, you might read them looking for financial guidance but the reality is you are being tricked into occultism and opening your life to demons.