Spiritual Warfare Library of PSM

I would like to share how the enemy had been setting me up throughout my life: As a kid, I had always seen things before they would happen, good or bad, and always wanted to know more about it. Then, when I was around age 13 or 14, I was lying in my bed, just lying there, daydreaming, but somehow ended up in a trance, a meditative state…it was communicated to me through a vision that my mom would die young (I always had visions of things of the future, especially with regard to family members). Not long after, my mom became very ill, with a brain tumor. Fast forward a few years later, and I am at her funeral…she died at age 41 or 42. For anyone who has suffered the death of a loved one, you know the emotional turmoil you go through when you try to sort things out about death. I had wondered what my mom was “experiencing” as a dead person. I think I even knew what the Bible said about what happens when one dies, but I didn’t want to hear that, because it was MY MOM. So, what did I do? I went the occult route, and started “searching” for supernatural ways to help me make sense of death…I had questions like, “Does my mom know she’s dead?” “Is she o.k.?” “Is she around me?” I even remember praying a prayer to get some type of sign that my mother was o.k. So then, not long after that, take a wild guess what happened: I started dreaming of my mother A LOT! We would go places, mostly walking and talking, and she would just be there with me. Then, the most memorable dream I had was this amazing dream of when my mom “appeared” to me, looking as beautiful as ever, wearing one of the same typical outfits she would always wear, floating in mid air, with this bright, magical looking circle of bees around her (she was allergic to bees). She then said, “You see? I’m alright.” Needless to say, that dream gave me a great sense of peace that my mother was o.k., and most likely around me, watching over me all the time, and such; which then led to my fascination with the supernatural. I started seeking out mediums, watching psychics on tv, reading their books, etc…I was into the likes of Sylvia Browne, John Edwards, and Lisa Williams mainly. I had met this one very nice medium online through myspace. She was so sweet, and made me feel very comfortable. She would share things with me about my mom. I also met a friend when I went back to college, just a few years ago, who also claimed to be a medium, and would tell me about my mom, and things I wanted to know regarding my future. I was loving it. And, because I had psychic powers, I too, was interested in developing mine and helping other people. I started automatic writing, calling on spirit guides, and such. Then, one time when a being manifested in front of me, hovered over me in my bed, grabbed me up to a sitting position, and I was spooked! Needless to say I decided to shut all that mess down! LOL!!! After I shut that down, realizing it was from the devil, he led me to my charismatic co-worker who he used to get me into the supernatural in the I.C…fooling me to think that since it was in the church, it was “of God.” I started seeking out charismatic churches, because all I wanted was to experience “The Presence of God, ” and I was just seeking the right church…even though God had called me out a long time ago! The enemy would send me to different charismatic churches, but I never stayed at one long enough to get too attached. But, after more revelation from the Holy Spirit, I completely left the church over the summer, was away from my religious coworker’s heavy influence, and had a burning desire for TRUTH. Then, I found Pam, and was intrigued by her testimony, and the truth she was preaching. Then, the Holy Ghost did the rest of the work and ended up SAVING ME! Through mentoring with Pam, the more I saw the truth of things, and the more I realized how truly CUNNING and EVIL the devil and his demons are! And they don’t give up!!! I have to always be on my guard!

Tags: dreams, New Age, Occult, spirituality