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Be Set Free from Torment!

23 May

Spiritual torment is a sign that if you have  believed you are born again, clearly you are not, and it rationally follows that  you are a victim of a false conversion. In such cases, torment can be considered a blessing because it will wake you up to realize that God does not give a spirit of fear or torment, but His goal is that you have a sound mind.

So it stands to reason if your intrusive, even blasphemous thoughts, the accusing, condemning voices and the  horrendous and shameful visions did not come from God, and  they did not originate  with you, logically speaking, then  the culprit has to be evil Spirits from Satan— the spirit of the Antichrist aka a religious spirit.

RESCUE DELIVERANCE PREP is unique because we do not confront evil spirits until you have been strengthened with might in your inner man. So our strategy will prepare you to retrieve the  stolen  ground inch by inch, progressively and gradually.  After all, it is rare that the enemy took the ground suddenly.  it may seem so because you were not aware of the gradual and progressive manner the enemy had infiltrated and then quietly and unobtrusively  began to  steal ground from  your soul, inch by inch.  Then one day it appeared  as if he took  charge suddenly and quickly when the truth is that while  you were not watching, he had been planning, strategizing and implementing his takeover until the day came, when he had obtained sufficient  ground to boldly make his presence known to you.

On occasion, we warn those we help concerning  situations that may appear to turn worse as you attempt to recover.  Nevertheless, if you  persist,  you  shall witness the adversary steadily losing his power. Your symptoms will  progressively decrease as the territory is increasingly regained. You will notice that your  mind, with its memory, imagination and reasoning powers, gradually becoming free so that you can use it again.

But we warn you, not to become complacent and cease to fight to the end. in other word, just because your symptoms have abated does not mean you can relax.  For if you do so, you will provide  evil spirits with an opening and an advantage to  re-design his attack in the near future.  Consequently, we advise you to continue to restore your control over your will power  until you are completely free.  Should you  stand on the foundation of the Lord’s victory of the cross and exercise your  mind to resist the enemy’s conditioning, you shall soon be delivered completely. You  shall become master of your  own mental life.

  1. What was stolen from you shall be restored.
  2. Your spiritual growth will be much deeper that what you originally had.
  3. No longer passive of mind, you will master self control, a fruit of the spirit, along with a much greater sense of peace than you had experienced in the past.
  4. If you have had a false conversion, now you have overcome all demonic hindrances  to being genuinely born again.

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Free From Demonic Torment

1 Feb

A personal testimony from a RESCUE member on her journey to deliverance and freedom in Christ. 

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From birth to the age of 16, i was raised in a catholic home. It wasn’t a strict catholic upbringing but we went to mass every Sunday, participated in Bible Study and confession regularly. My catholic life was dry for the most part, the only time i had a supernatural experience was one time i had to go do my confession to a priest in order for the church to give me the sacrament of confirmation which was to signify that i have been filled with the Holy Spirit and now worthy to receive the body & blood of Jesus which was the wafer and wine offered during mass.

I was dreading my walk to the church due to a number of reasons, first, I was naturally a fearful person, the church was also located in a neighborhood that wasn’t very safe, i remember my heart racing and a strong urge to not go for the confession but i thought that was the devil deterring me from being filled by the Holy Spirit. I went to the church and confessed my sins, even during confession, i lied and made up sins that i didn’t even do. The priest told me to repeat the hail mary & the Lord’s prayer several times and he declared me absolutely clean. I felt this amazing sense of peace and joy. The girl walking back home was confident and happy and sure that she had received the Holy Ghost, the truth is i didn’t by a simple teaching from Jesus, “you shall know them by their fruits.” 

My feelings of joy and peace didn’t last long, there was no substantial change in my spiritual life, it was still dry and full of rituals. My fear increased greatly. I resigned myself to thinking this is how spiritual life is, many adults weren’t living holy as they claimed. I was initially exposed to hypocrisy in the church while being catholic, it used to bother me that the “spiritual giants” used to gossip and be mean to fellow church goers. I was a child and raised not to question adults so i kept this question to myself and remained troubled over it.

FALSE CONVERSION

In 2000, I was 16 and in high school where a church group visited and we were shown an “End time” movie. They later explained how many will be be-headed and suffer when they miss the rapture. We were also threatened with the prospect of dying & going to hell, where people burn forever. I panicked and rushed forward to say the sinner’s prayer which was supposed to allow Jesus to enter my heart and seal me with eternal life in heaven. I thought I received Jesus Christ of Nazareth but red flags started popping up immediately.

  1. First red flag was that I started suffering from sexual thoughts about Jesus, the thoughts felt like a blow to my mind, I would fight back to stop the thought from continuing. I suffered in silence, very embarrassed and thought i was a very lustful person. I cried for forgiveness constantly hoping God wont be angry with me.
  2. Second red flag was the constant cuss words in my mind directed towards God the Father and the Holy Spirit. One time during a prayer meeting, i felt a strong force pushing me to open my mouth and hurl obscenities, i held my mouth tight, waiting anxiously for the meeting to end so i can run out.
  3. I got a dream where i was surrounded by strange looking creatures, in the dream i realized they were demons and all of them stared at me intently, they all looked ready to attack especially one that looked like an anaconda. I wondered why they didn’t attack, but as i looked out the corner of my right eye, i saw a man dressed in white. I thought that was Jesus of Nazareth protecting me but during my counselling it became evident to me that dream was showing me the fake Jesus and his demons who have entered my life.

TORMENT

I was always a fearful person and this increased after getting “saved.” Every night i would perform a ritual of anointing myself, the bed, and room before i slept. I was afraid of death, torture, nightmares and demons attacking me while i slept. Listening to worship songs, sermons and anointing the vicinity gave some comfort but the results were short lived. I started taking sleeping pills after a family tragedy to try and get some sleep but my sleep pattern was ruined, i suffered from insomnia and constant fatigue.

Things took a turn for the worse in 2004 when I was asleep alone in my room and a spirit touched my private part. I woke up in complete shock, it felt like a complete invasion of privacy, I wasn’t safe in my own home. All the doors were locked, the windows were shut but yet i was attacked. My fear grew tremendously because the demons taunting me made me know there was more to come. I didn’t share this with anyone because i never heard other people suffering from this. I felt ashamed, embarrassed, and felt sad for myself, wondering who could help me, i prayed, read the bible, went to church but baffled as to why this was happening. I engaged in a lot of prayer meetings where we would recite Cindy Trimm prayers from her book, binding demons and releasing angels. I would feel pumped after a prayer session but as always, the feelings were short lived.

I was filled with anxiety before going to bed, making sure i slept with the lights on, slept in certain positions, played christian music hoping that i wouldst get sexually or physically assaulted. All the while i showed other people that i was as normal as i can be, yet i was falling apart on the inside.

In 2013/2014 the night visits became weekly and the demons were becoming more bold in their attacks, I’ve been slapped and had my private parts fondled. I suffered from sleep paralysis as well. By mid 2014 i finally acknowledged i was in trouble as the years of torment were adding up, also the attacks were getting more frequent and more deadly. I started to feel my mind slip and knew if i don’t get help soon, the situation will turn critical. 

HOW I MET PAM SHEPPARD

I was restless, i could feel i was at a turning point in my life, a feeling like i was at the edge and almost about to fall off. I listened to more TD Jakes sermons, then moved to G Craige Lewis. My thinking was to combat demonic attacks with more religious ritual, i was so blind and couldn’t see that the more i engaged in religion, the worse the attacks became. I wrongly thought that the rituals – reading the bible, listening to sermons & christian music helped lessen the intensity of these attacks, if i stopped them, the attacks would become much worse. I was completely blind!

I always searched various christian topics on the web, i literally stumbled on Pam Sheppard’s blog and the topic was on sexual acts that would defile a marriage. I found her take on the topic interesting and it led me to read more topics she had covered on her blog. As i read her blogs about the Institutional Church (I.C.) having been taken over by fallen angels, i was shocked yet intrigued because she was answering all the questions i had while being in the church. 

Through reading more posts from Pastor Pam i found a video she did on “Spirit Rape” where she spoke on women experiencing visitation from spirits which would engage in sexual acts with them, she finished the video by saying if this is happening to you, you are not born again. I tried to ignore the last part but the torment caused me to realize something is terribly wrong and its time to get some answers. I knew my time to face the truth had arrived.

EMOTIONS

For the longest time i struggled with low self esteem. I would cry for no reason and always find something to worry about and when the situation was resolved, i would look for the next issue to stress about. My emotions were determined by outside factors and other people, i bought into the labels society, family and church gave me.

Growing up in Africa as a black person, my ethnicity was never an issue. I never felt inferior as a black person. I knew what the world thinks of Africa and Africans in general but it never affected me in my day to day life. When i moved to North America, i felt my blackness and it wasn’t good, i felt inferior and any incident where someone would be rude or dismissive would affect me greatly since i wanted other people to validate me since i had no identity.

i was chained to standards set by other people e.g. Ethnic stereotypes, church views that women can’t be pastors, a woman is not valuable to society if she is not married or have children. My bias against women pastors almost led me not to listen to Pam but i stayed and listened because my torment was greater than my opinions and it humbled me to a point i was ready to listen and i thank God for making it that way otherwise my pride would have made me walk away.

DELIVERANCE PROCESS

Before i started my counselling sessions with Pam, i thought deliverance was a pastor shouting at a demon to come out as the captive manifests and rolls on the ground shouting. My view on deliverance was very different from what it really is. I watched several of Pastor Pam’s videos and read her blogs, after a couple of days i sent her an email stating that I felt i had a false conversion and needed help. I filled out a Deliverance form which helped me go down memory lane in my life and it helped me through the counselling process as Pam could look through the forms and see the doorways I had opened to the demons that were harassing me.

I learnt lot and discovered that i had a false conversion  which we broke. My will was weak and passive and needed to be built up. I also learnt of ancestral demons that affect people of African background and how to break any covenants that i would have been a part of. My biggest challenge was to stop religious rituals that i was used to, but my desire to be free was greater and the more i learnt, the more i saw what i was doing was putting me in more danger. 

Pam has a huge resource through the blogs, videos, books, phone sessions and the online ministry group which i am a part of. All of these have helped me overcome so many strongholds. 

RESCUE

As the Psalmist says Psalm 18:29 With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall. That has been my experience with Pam Sheppard and RESCUE. I learnt how to break my false conversion, build up my free will and not allow my emotions to control my actions. Views that held me in chains for years have been broken, i know my value and i get my identity from me, not what outsiders say. I have learnt my personality and know myself better than i have in years which has led to better decision making. I have learnt how to distinguish a spiritual issue from a non-spiritual issue. The torment i suffered for years has stopped! The shame i felt was removed when i realized i had been tricked into worshiping the fake Jesus and others have suffered the same issues i faced. I’m gaining a respect for God, something i never had while religious, i look back and see he has been guiding and protecting me even when i was an idolater. I have seen God’s mercy and compassion firsthand when he led me to Pam Sheppard, his faithful servant. I have gained so much yet i am thrilled because there is more to come, I am now waiting to be born again which will happen at the Holy Spirit’s timing.

Jesus warns his people in Rev 18:4 Come out of her, my people, lest you share in her sins and lest you receive her plagues.

I have single handedly seen and experienced the plagues in the Institutional Church, my story shows God`s mercy towards to me because even though i was suffering from the plagues, i still couldn’t see that being in the I.C. was the problem. God lifted the veil during my counselling process and i finally understood why i was suffering and why i had to leave. I walk in freedom now and can fully relate to Jesus words that, `you will know the truth and it will make you free.
If you are in torment and need counselling, fill the contact form below.

Blasphemous Thoughts Yesterday and Today by Pam Sheppard

26 Jul

Over the centuries, demons and fallen angels continue to use similar strategies to torment their captives. Mental torment including blasphemous thoughts and irrational fears have been used by evil spirits throughout history to terrify those who have been religious. One such strategy in particular is inserting a fear into the captive of selling his soul, or even selling Christ so that he loses his salvation. Though both of these fears are not rooted in reality, and are simply torment in the realm of the mind, they serve as a way for demons to keep the captive in terror of committing a horrible sin.

One man who suffered intensely from blasphemous thoughts and a vivid fear of “selling Christ” was John Bunyan, who lived in England from 1628­1688. Bunyan eventually became a minister of the Gospel who has been famous throughout the centuries for his books including The Pilgrim’s Progress a​nd G​race Abounding to the Chief of Sinners.​Bunyan began worrying about sin and going to hell at the very young age of 9 or 10 years old. Once in his 20’s, Bunyan read the books T​he Plain Man’s Pathway to Heaven a​nd T​he Practice of Piety​and he began to desire religion and started attending church twice a day.
Bunyan became more and more religious, attempting to keep the ten commandments in order to go to heaven.

Though appearing to have turned his life around from an outwardly sinful one to one that seemed holy, he was consumed with doubts and began to have disturbing obsessive thoughts. The thoughts that started plaguing Bunyan included the fear that he was a reprobate and that he was possessed by the devil. Blasphemous thoughts about God also tormented him. “Yea, then I was most distressed with blasphemies. If I had been hearing the word, then uncleanness, blasphemies and despair would hold me a captive there: if I have been reading, then sometimes I had sudden thoughts to question all I read…“ (G​race Abounding to the Chief of Sinners,​paragraph 106).

In addition to blasphemous thoughts, Bunyan was also plagued by intrusive thoughts about worshipping the devil.

Sometimes also he (the devil) would cast in such wicked thoughts as these; that I must pray to him, or for him: I have thought sometimes of that, F​all down; o​r, i​f thou wilt fall down and worship me. M​att. iii. 9.” (​Grace Abounding,​paragraph 107).
A particularly distressing obsession that haunted Bunyan was “T​o sell and part with this most blessed Christ, to exchange Him for the things of this life, for any thing. T​he temptation lay upon me for the space of a year, and did follow me so continually, that I was not rid of it one day in a month: no, not sometimes one hour in many days together, unless when I was asleep.” (G​race Abounding,​paragraph 133).

“But it was neither my dislike of the thought, nor yet any desire and endeavour to resist, that in the least did shake or abate the continuation or force and strength thereof; for it did always, in almost whatever I thought, intermix itself therewith, in such sort, that I could neither eat my food, stoop for a pin, chop a stick, or cast mine eye to look on this or that, but still the temptation would come, S​ell Christ for this, or sell Christ for that; sell Him, sell Him.”​(​G​race Abounding,​paragraph 135).

This particular tormenting thought about selling Christ bears many similarities to the case of one of my clients, who I will call Diane. Diane is an A student and an intelligent college grad. For months now she has been tormented with the intrusive thought of selling her soul to the devil. Since having a false conversion about 6 years ago, she began having obsessive intrusive thoughts characteristic of OCD. These unwanted thoughts included the fear of committing the unpardonable sin, selling her birthright like Esau, going to hell, selling her salvation, and most recently, the fear of selling her soul to the devil.

Diane is constantly besieged these thoughts, just like Bunyan was attacked constantly for at least a year with thoughts about selling Jesus Christ. Like Bunyan, despite the fact that these thoughts are unwanted and she fears them, they still return. Just like Bunyan was dealing with intrusive thoughts to sell Christ, this client is dealing with intrusive thoughts to sell her soul to the devil, which in essence would be selling out Christ as well.

So I noticed that the case of Diane  and the case of John Bunyan have many similarities. The natures of Bunyan and Diane are to be self­absorbed, easily lost in thought, and fearful. The strategy of the evil spirits in Bunyan’s case and her case has been to torment them with their worst fears. Both Bunyan and this woman were/are terrified to somehow “give in” or “consent to” the thoughts. Bunyan at one point believed that he consented to the thought to sell Christ, just by having the thought “Let Him go, if He will” pass through his heart. He truly believed that he had sold his savior by having this thought and that he was doomed to hell for all eternity, believing that he had committed an unpardonable sin. My client also felt at one point that she had consented to selling her soul by just having a thought/sensation that felt as if she had “given in” to the thoughts about selling her soul. After being convinced that in fact, she had not actually sold her soul, the thoughts still continued. At this point the thoughts are continual, just like Bunyan’s thoughts about selling Christ.

My hypothesis  is this: the fact that these two cases which are CENTURIES apart are extremely similar and follow a similar pattern of fears and intrusive thoughts, with both people at one point being convinced that they had “sold their soul” or “sold Christ,” shows that the demonic strategy of tormenting people with blasphemous thoughts and fears of worshipping the devil or selling one’s soul or selling out Christ is nothing new. Demons know people’s personality types. It seems as if those who are particularly self-­absorbed, fearful, and are prone to OCD are prime targets for demons to torment them with thoughts that scare the person the most.

The good news is this: there is hope for those who suffer with intrusive blasphemous thoughts, fears of committing the unpardonable sin, selling Christ, selling one’s soul, and other tormenting thoughts. Bunyan’s case shows that although he suffered with this particular fear of selling Christ for over a year, Bunyan had a born again experience in which he was convicted of sin, was brought to the cross and was reassured of Christ’s bodily resurrection, and received forgiveness and cleansing of his sins. (G​race Abounding,​paragraph 229). At this point, all Bunyan’s torment stopped and he received peace and joy. My client Diane is still dealing with these thoughts on a moment-­to-­moment basis, which is extremely frustrating both to her and to myself as this has been a persistent issue for her. Although Diane presently is still dealing with the demonic intrusive thoughts and fears, if she is of the elect, she will be set free immediately upon her rebirth. For now, counseling  helps  Diane to manage and reduce the intensity of the torment.

Works cited: Bunyan, John. ​Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinners. http://www.gutenberg.org/files/654/654­h/654­h.htm#page147