I was sleeping the other night when I found myself sitting up, trembling with fear. This was not a natural kind of fear but a supernatural one where I was paralyzed. I looked across my room and felt a very evil presence but saw nothing. It was like a fog of terror was throughout the room and even though it was around 5 in the morning, somehow, the room grew even darker. Have you ever seen the Twilight Zone? In that show, the lighting of a scene will change dramatically as the characters experience some kind of twist in their supernatural/unexplainable adventure. That was the kind of effect going on in my room, a sudden darkness and haze. This clip here more or less shows the hazy quality of what was happening.
I could sense a demon was there by a penetrating aura of evil and maliciousness hanging in the air. I could also tell he was orchestrating this occurrence, like a small hurricane forming and swirling around him anywhere he went. He communicated with me but it wasn’t with words. My memory eludes me as to how exactly, but he “told” me in some kind of supernatural way (either through my mind or in the spirit) that he was going to come kill me at 1 pm the next day.
After he said that, I felt a slapping sensation against the back of my head causing me to jolt up from the pillow like you may have experienced after waking up from a nightmare. I looked around the room and things were back to normal; I realized I had been dreaming. I also realized that the demon was replicating my current circumstances so that when I woke up, I would stay fearful that he was still there to haunt me. Fallen angels and demons thrive off of making people fearful; it allows them greater control in controlling the person. After a few moments, I said aloud that I wasn’t afraid of the evil spirit.
I had this happen to me once before. I was sleeping in an office on a couch. A devilish, brutish entity rushed out from behind a desk opposite the couch then jumped on me and terrorized me. When I woke up, I was in the same room and the circumstances were similar. It’s a little trick demons play on people to keep them in a state of fear after they wake up. By mimicking your current, real-life circumstances, they’re ingraining a thought that they’re always around to hunt you down. Outside of that, throughout my life I have had times where I felt like I was fighting paralysis while sleeping and barely able to move, but usually not with a demonic figure terrorizing me.
The occurrences I’ve experienced are known as a phenomena called sleep paralysis. Sleep paralysis usually contains 3 elements that characterize it: 1) An inability to move major muscles. People often can only move their eyes, fingers, toes, and facial muscles, if anything. 2) The presence of a demonic, strange, and/or evil figure. It is often sitting on the person’s chest or at the edge of the bed, watching them ominously. 3) a (supernatural) feeling of horror. These occurrences have been recorded throughout history as far back as 400 BC and across all different countries and cultures. The following famous painting is dated back to the 1700’s and depicts someone experiencing it:
In reality, sleep paralysis is a ploy used by demons to terrorize the victim and put them in a state of bondage by living in fear. It is often accompanied with a sense of dread and/or the spirit communicates that it will kill the victim at a certain time.
The next day at that time was when I was supposed to speak with Pastor Pam Sheppard on a regularly scheduled pastoral counseling session. Pastor Pam has run into a number of clients, many of who are mentally ill, who continually heeded these warnings and lived in fear because of them. That is the goal of the demons using these ploys: to torment the victim and keep them in fear, thereby weakening them.
I have faced demonic-induced fears during my time in RESCUE and have been able to overcome them through counseling with Pastor Pam. One of the core foundational teachings that I was taught in RESCUE is knowing the enemy and learning how they operate. Because my counseling sessions taught me that demons use fear to control their victims, I was able to quickly discard my recent experience and move forward without fear.
If you have had any demonic experiences wherein they work to create fear in your life, complete the contact form below if you seek help. Or you can call and ask for Pastor Pam at 888-818-1117.
I have noticed that some churchgoers feel absolutely miserable when they become undeceived. Their self worth was bound up in their acts of religion. Self-hatred, shame and guilt are a part of the process as well. Serious remorse and sorrow—the grieving stage—is usually followed by intense anger and desire for revenge against those who deceived them.
I never experienced any of that.
As for me, I was a minister for more than 25 years within a well-known denomination when I got undeceived. I NEVER GOT ANGRY OR BLAMED ANYONE ELSE. I was actually angry BEFORE I got undeceived. That is because most of the time, I was rejected by church folk and other ministers. So once I got undeceived, I realized why people in the institutional church aka the IC did not like me. And so it was very easy for me to forgive them and move on. Also, I really never submitted myself to anyone. I took all the blame primarily on myself. Therefore, all those whom the enemy used to deceive me did not even get a second thought.
In fact, I was blissfully joyous. First came shock. Then understanding followed by extreme gratefulness.
What I was grateful for is that everything I was wrong on: tongues and other supernatural gifts, tithing, I RARELY PREACHED FROM THE PULPIT. I never insisted that everyone speak in tongues, or tithe. Did I create false conversions? Not many. On a rare occasion, I declared people born again when they “accepted Christ.” I did not do much on “ask Him to come into your heart” though. While I was ministering at the altar, it just did not come to me to say.
The denomination I was in did not have many people to come forward to accept Christ. The pastors asked the congregations to come forward to join the denomination and then they put them on a 6 months trial. So there were not many people falsely getting born again.
I REMAIN VERY GRATEFUL THAT MY MARGIN OF ERROR DID NOT REALLY HURT ANYONE.
Actually, I knew from the beginning in 1979 that something was seriously wrong with the church but I thought it was my responsibility to be an instrument for IC change. Recently I heard that the special church I adored and desired to pastor for so many years is practically dead right now. A close ministerial friend who was my rival over that church has now left it in failure and disgrace. Did I feel vindicated? NO. What I felt was utter sadness. You know them by their fruit.
One of the stages you should arrive at is being grateful that God saw fit to undeceived you. If you have had a false conversion, if He has un-deceived you, that means He intends to cause you to be born again and to deliver you. I am particularly in awe that most of my life, I thought I was special. I WANTED TO BE KNOWN as the best this or that. The truth is that I did not know what it really means to be special really until God Himself made me special beyond my expectation with the revelations He has given me. No, I had no idea what special really is. If there is a duplicate of me anywhere in the world, I would like to meet him or her.
God has made me so special that I prefer to hide than to make myself known to the world. All I want is for God”s elect to be undeceived.”
What really shocked me was to discover that the 3 dreams I had in 1979 that told me to go to that particular church were from the devil. That was one of my biggest shocks. It caused me to wonder if God really called me to the ministry while in the church. Certainly, something supernatural DID happen. Was that God or the devil? Was all my work a waste? Did I really cast out demons from people or was it all a sham? Was The Holy Spirit helping me to preach or did my help come from a fallen angel?
Well, I have answers to those questions. One way I got an answer was to listen to messages I preached and taught before I was undeceived. I have not heard them all as there are many, but I have not found a mistake or an untruth yet in the ones I have heard thus far. Actually, I am being blessed and re-taught by my own messages.
For me, my past spiritual life is not a major concern. I put all those years behind me without much effort.
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A personal testimony from a RESCUE member on her journey to deliverance and freedom in Christ.
From birth to the age of 16, i was raised in a catholic home. It wasn’t a strict catholic upbringing but we went to mass every Sunday, participated in Bible Study and confession regularly. My catholic life was dry for the most part, the only time i had a supernatural experience was one time i had to go do my confession to a priest in order for the church to give me the sacrament of confirmation which was to signify that i have been filled with the Holy Spirit and now worthy to receive the body & blood of Jesus which was the wafer and wine offered during mass.
I was dreading my walk to the church due to a number of reasons, first, I was naturally a fearful person, the church was also located in a neighborhood that wasn’t very safe, i remember my heart racing and a strong urge to not go for the confession but i thought that was the devil deterring me from being filled by the Holy Spirit. I went to the church and confessed my sins, even during confession, i lied and made up sins that i didn’t even do. The priest told me to repeat the hail mary & the Lord’s prayer several times and he declared me absolutely clean. I felt this amazing sense of peace and joy. The girl walking back home was confident and happy and sure that she had received the Holy Ghost, the truth is i didn’t by a simple teaching from Jesus, “you shall know them by their fruits.”
My feelings of joy and peace didn’t last long, there was no substantial change in my spiritual life, it was still dry and full of rituals. My fear increased greatly. I resigned myself to thinking this is how spiritual life is, many adults weren’t living holy as they claimed. I was initially exposed to hypocrisy in the church while being catholic, it used to bother me that the “spiritual giants” used to gossip and be mean to fellow church goers. I was a child and raised not to question adults so i kept this question to myself and remained troubled over it.
In 2000, I was 16 and in high school where a church group visited and we were shown an “End time” movie. They later explained how many will be be-headed and suffer when they miss the rapture. We were also threatened with the prospect of dying & going to hell, where people burn forever. I panicked and rushed forward to say the sinner’s prayer which was supposed to allow Jesus to enter my heart and seal me with eternal life in heaven. I thought I received Jesus Christ of Nazareth but red flags started popping up immediately.
- First red flag was that I started suffering from sexual thoughts about Jesus, the thoughts felt like a blow to my mind, I would fight back to stop the thought from continuing. I suffered in silence, very embarrassed and thought i was a very lustful person. I cried for forgiveness constantly hoping God wont be angry with me.
- Second red flag was the constant cuss words in my mind directed towards God the Father and the Holy Spirit. One time during a prayer meeting, i felt a strong force pushing me to open my mouth and hurl obscenities, i held my mouth tight, waiting anxiously for the meeting to end so i can run out.
- I got a dream where i was surrounded by strange looking creatures, in the dream i realized they were demons and all of them stared at me intently, they all looked ready to attack especially one that looked like an anaconda. I wondered why they didn’t attack, but as i looked out the corner of my right eye, i saw a man dressed in white. I thought that was Jesus of Nazareth protecting me but during my counselling it became evident to me that dream was showing me the fake Jesus and his demons who have entered my life.
I was always a fearful person and this increased after getting “saved.” Every night i would perform a ritual of anointing myself, the bed, and room before i slept. I was afraid of death, torture, nightmares and demons attacking me while i slept. Listening to worship songs, sermons and anointing the vicinity gave some comfort but the results were short lived. I started taking sleeping pills after a family tragedy to try and get some sleep but my sleep pattern was ruined, i suffered from insomnia and constant fatigue.
Things took a turn for the worse in 2004 when I was asleep alone in my room and a spirit touched my private part. I woke up in complete shock, it felt like a complete invasion of privacy, I wasn’t safe in my own home. All the doors were locked, the windows were shut but yet i was attacked. My fear grew tremendously because the demons taunting me made me know there was more to come. I didn’t share this with anyone because i never heard other people suffering from this. I felt ashamed, embarrassed, and felt sad for myself, wondering who could help me, i prayed, read the bible, went to church but baffled as to why this was happening. I engaged in a lot of prayer meetings where we would recite Cindy Trimm prayers from her book, binding demons and releasing angels. I would feel pumped after a prayer session but as always, the feelings were short lived.
I was filled with anxiety before going to bed, making sure i slept with the lights on, slept in certain positions, played christian music hoping that i wouldst get sexually or physically assaulted. All the while i showed other people that i was as normal as i can be, yet i was falling apart on the inside.
In 2013/2014 the night visits became weekly and the demons were becoming more bold in their attacks, I’ve been slapped and had my private parts fondled. I suffered from sleep paralysis as well. By mid 2014 i finally acknowledged i was in trouble as the years of torment were adding up, also the attacks were getting more frequent and more deadly. I started to feel my mind slip and knew if i don’t get help soon, the situation will turn critical.
HOW I MET PAM SHEPPARD
I was restless, i could feel i was at a turning point in my life, a feeling like i was at the edge and almost about to fall off. I listened to more TD Jakes sermons, then moved to G Craige Lewis. My thinking was to combat demonic attacks with more religious ritual, i was so blind and couldn’t see that the more i engaged in religion, the worse the attacks became. I wrongly thought that the rituals – reading the bible, listening to sermons & christian music helped lessen the intensity of these attacks, if i stopped them, the attacks would become much worse. I was completely blind!
I always searched various christian topics on the web, i literally stumbled on Pam Sheppard’s blog and the topic was on sexual acts that would defile a marriage. I found her take on the topic interesting and it led me to read more topics she had covered on her blog. As i read her blogs about the Institutional Church (I.C.) having been taken over by fallen angels, i was shocked yet intrigued because she was answering all the questions i had while being in the church.
Through reading more posts from Pastor Pam i found a video she did on “Spirit Rape” where she spoke on women experiencing visitation from spirits which would engage in sexual acts with them, she finished the video by saying if this is happening to you, you are not born again. I tried to ignore the last part but the torment caused me to realize something is terribly wrong and its time to get some answers. I knew my time to face the truth had arrived.
For the longest time i struggled with low self esteem. I would cry for no reason and always find something to worry about and when the situation was resolved, i would look for the next issue to stress about. My emotions were determined by outside factors and other people, i bought into the labels society, family and church gave me.
Growing up in Africa as a black person, my ethnicity was never an issue. I never felt inferior as a black person. I knew what the world thinks of Africa and Africans in general but it never affected me in my day to day life. When i moved to North America, i felt my blackness and it wasn’t good, i felt inferior and any incident where someone would be rude or dismissive would affect me greatly since i wanted other people to validate me since i had no identity.
i was chained to standards set by other people e.g. Ethnic stereotypes, church views that women can’t be pastors, a woman is not valuable to society if she is not married or have children. My bias against women pastors almost led me not to listen to Pam but i stayed and listened because my torment was greater than my opinions and it humbled me to a point i was ready to listen and i thank God for making it that way otherwise my pride would have made me walk away.
Before i started my counselling sessions with Pam, i thought deliverance was a pastor shouting at a demon to come out as the captive manifests and rolls on the ground shouting. My view on deliverance was very different from what it really is. I watched several of Pastor Pam’s videos and read her blogs, after a couple of days i sent her an email stating that I felt i had a false conversion and needed help. I filled out a Deliverance form which helped me go down memory lane in my life and it helped me through the counselling process as Pam could look through the forms and see the doorways I had opened to the demons that were harassing me.
I learnt lot and discovered that i had a false conversion which we broke. My will was weak and passive and needed to be built up. I also learnt of ancestral demons that affect people of African background and how to break any covenants that i would have been a part of. My biggest challenge was to stop religious rituals that i was used to, but my desire to be free was greater and the more i learnt, the more i saw what i was doing was putting me in more danger.
Pam has a huge resource through the blogs, videos, books, phone sessions and the online ministry group which i am a part of. All of these have helped me overcome so many strongholds.
As the Psalmist says Psalm 18:29 With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall. That has been my experience with Pam Sheppard and RESCUE. I learnt how to break my false conversion, build up my free will and not allow my emotions to control my actions. Views that held me in chains for years have been broken, i know my value and i get my identity from me, not what outsiders say. I have learnt my personality and know myself better than i have in years which has led to better decision making. I have learnt how to distinguish a spiritual issue from a non-spiritual issue. The torment i suffered for years has stopped! The shame i felt was removed when i realized i had been tricked into worshiping the fake Jesus and others have suffered the same issues i faced. I’m gaining a respect for God, something i never had while religious, i look back and see he has been guiding and protecting me even when i was an idolater. I have seen God’s mercy and compassion firsthand when he led me to Pam Sheppard, his faithful servant. I have gained so much yet i am thrilled because there is more to come, I am now waiting to be born again which will happen at the Holy Spirit’s timing.
Jesus warns his people in Rev 18:4 Come out of her, my people, lest you share in her sins and lest you receive her plagues.
Eddie Long declared that he was back and healed at his church during his pastoral anniversary service on Oct. 9, 2016. He also asked for church members to move forward to the pulpit and receive healing so that he could lay his hands on them. . It has now been announced that Eddie has passed away today and it was from an aggressive form of cancer. His death will probably leave many church goers puzzled, disillusioned and needing answers wondering does God still heal? does deliverance & the power of God still exist? Why was Eddie not healed even when he claimed he was as the prosperity gospel teaches?
Deliverance, healing still occurs, people are even becoming born again BUT this is not happening in the church but outside of Her.
In Re. 18;4, the Lord Himself declared “Come Out of Her, My People.” my pastor, Pam Sheppard challenges the elect of God to ask themselves 3 simple questions concerning the Lord’s warning, as follows:
1. Where are “God’s People?”
Could the scriptures be referring to a particular nation or country? No. God’s people are in every nation. Even though America claims to be a Christian, people of diverse persuasions can agree on this one point, namely, that America is really NOT a Christian nation. Let’s face it. The universal place where God’s people assemble for worship is “in the organized church.” It’s the only place that makes sense. In this day and time, without a passport and finances, who can walk out of their native country very easily and re-locate elsewhere? In truth, mass exodus from anywhere today is practically impossible. Jesus would not command us to do the impossible.
However, anywhere in the world, we can come out of the organized church by simply no longer attending.
2. What generation of God’s people is Jesus speaking to?
Most of the book of Revelation is about the end of the church age. If the 7 churches in the book of Revelation represent chronological symbols of church ages throughout history, then Jesus is talking to the final generation, the church at Laodicea. It’s a no-brainer that no other church era on earth could top our own generation in a claim to be “rich and in need of nothing.” (Revelation 3:17)
3. Are we at the end of the church age?
For all intents and purposes, if we are the church at Laodicea, where those who preach the prosperity gospel actually DO brag on how rich they are, spiritual blindness is clearly and undeniably rampant. When churchgoers haven’t a clue as to the meaning of repentance, rebirth and the resurrection and therein believe that they are saved but they are not, what could be a stronger sign that “we are near or even at the end of the church age?
So if you answer in the affirmative to all 3 questions, then Jesus has spoken to YOU! He is warning you at this very moment to come out of the organized church, and if you don’t, you are going to receive of her plagues. You don’t have to be a bible scholar, a prophet or even a rocket scientist to answer these 3 questions. Once you have your answer, then if you are a true believer in Jesus Christ, you will know, without a shadow of a doubt that you must “come out of Her.”
In a nutshell, ONE primary reason stands out above all others that should be enough for the elect to decide to come out of Her. It’s because fallen angels—religious devils—have infiltrated the entire church system. Certainly, they have no part in the true Body of Christ because the real “church” is not a building made with hands. However, through compromise and doctrinal distortions of all kinds, there is an invisible, imposter god undergirding every edifice, regardless of how sincere and faithful the leadership.
Consequently, if you are unknowingly worshiping an imposter, then you are unknowingly practicing idolatry and breaking the 10 Commandments. The punishment for idolatry is a release of the curses or “the plagues.” (Deuteronomy 28) When judgment falls, churchgoers will not be able to find the secret place of the Most High, nor abide under the shadow of the Almighty. Paul warned the Corinthians that they should “flee fornication.” In the spirit, fornication is idolatry. In the words of Klein and Spears in their book “Devils and Demons,” these co-authors offer the elect some sober and sound advice:
“We need to run, not walk—-as fast as we can and as far away as we can get—from any devils and demons that masquerade as our great God of the Universe.”
Putting my interpretation of who actually is “Her” of Revelation 18:4, I have also considered several other scriptures in both testaments. For example, in the old testament, whenever the Father referred to the idolatry of the children of Israel, He used symbols of gender, with Himself as masculine and His people as feminine. In fact, God command the prophet Hosea to marry an adulterous woman to stand as a metaphorical comparison of Himself and the children of Israel’s practicing the religions of heathen nations. (Hosea 1:1-3)
Similarly, Jesus is the metaphorical Bridegroom while the elect—His people—are the Bride. In both testaments, idolatry is synonymous with fornication or sex outside of marriage. When God’s people practiced a false religion, it is written that they “went a whoring.” In the new testament, the Lord chided the first church at Ephesus with a gender based reproach when He warned “you have lost your first love.” (Rev.2:4) In response to the idolatry in the church at Thyatira, the Lord declared yet another gender based statement with “I’ll cast you into a bed and them that commit adultery with her into great tribulation, except they repent of their deeds. (Rev. 2:20-22)
There are several more examples that in themselves could be the subject of a book or two, particularly “the Songs of Solomon.” In keeping with the biblical pattern, it stands to reason that in our times, the “Her” of Revelation 18:4 is an idolatrous religion practiced predominately behind church walls.
Playing the devil’s advocate with yet another question posed in an attempt to try the spirits to see if they be of God, I asked myself the following questions: : Suppose I am completely wrong and I have absolutely misinterpreted the scriptures and the “Her” in Revelation
18:4 is really NOT the organized church? To that, my response is “I will have lost nothing because I gained absolutely nothing from the church except error and deception.”
More telling words from Pastor Pam:
As I look back in order to present my decades of spiritual history within a well known denominational system,” chapters 2 to 6 will progressively unfold that not only did the organized church have nothing at all to do with my salvation or my spiritual edification, but in fact, the entire religious system served as an enemy to my soul. A root in dry ground, I did more than merely survive. Showered with God’s grace and mercy, I actually thrived in a dark, un-nurturing place— a spiritually dangerous, hostile spiritual environment. If God Himself had not been on my side, I am convinced that I would have withered on the vine and died—spirit, soul and body.
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I conducted deliverance counseling with a client who reported she got demonized shortly after practicing journaling through the teachings of Mark Virkler. Alice (not her name) heard him on a Sid Roth interview, purchased his CD training program and in just a few months, she was demonized. Here is a brief portion of her story:
The demonic torment continues: Demons in eyes, male demon (kundalini I think- symptoms fit) attached to base of skull, crawls through hair, feels like slight electric current, crawling on legs, crawling in spine from head to tailbone, this big kundalini one burns my head, face, back, and arms. Heat waves, chills. Itching of face, rash on face, burning eyes. Sexual harassment (this has completely failed and is fading away because it is the one type or group of demons from which I am always given the way of escape. They are also required to obey my command to be gone and thus they can’t get anywhere no matter how often they check back.) Interference with sensation nerves in bowels.
Jitters, vibrating in lower left leg like a rattlesnake’s tail, desolate sorrow, dull ache in soul like just before you cry, crying jags, feeling that God has rejected me, Sleepy when need to be awake, awake when supposed to be asleep. Things I say don’t come out right. Old choir songs run round and round in head. Spiritual confusion, doubt. Trouble making simple decisions. I know I have open chakras, from crown to tailbone, and in my case this takes place through my eyes at night, about 5 at a time. They are tormenting spirits.
After 6 months of deliverance counseling with me, she reported the following:
I used to hear voices and have terrible nightmares, but since being undeceived, these are gone. Also gone are mocking accusations in the form of thoughts, like everything that went wrong with your kids is your fault, and you have lived such a profane life, you are an old ugly bitch, You are a worthless excuse, You dumb whore, or You are a world class failure at everything you’ve ever done, especially a lousy mother. Pam, you cast that one out, and it never returned. It is so peaceful not to be constantly accused, the silence is golden. Also, I was being driven to run ragged doing church work and ministry. I thought I was guilty if I didn’t wear myself out. And you cast that one out, never to return. I quit everything, and I am peaceful and free from that. And now I am free to care for my mom and dad as I need and want to do. I don’t know much about the python spirit, except the reference you gave in Acts, but I know it’s gone. My days of being drawn into divination are over, because I have been undeceived.
I plan to watch the Mark Virkler video that this client claims caused her to be demonized. I won’t post the video but I will take some notes from it. I want to jot down what ever instructions were given so that with future clients, I will walk them through it in reverse, disavowing each instruction. With this client, I worked on each chakra, one by one every few months.
Let this be a warning to all presence of God seekers who may be among us, unawares.
If you became demonized after journaling or entering into an altered state of consciousness, just know that it is no quick fix. However, if you are willing to do the work as Alice did, then send me an email to firstname.lastname@example.org and we can get started obtaining your freedom.
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