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The Key to Defeating Torment – Trusting God

6 Aug
A person successfully conquers a mountain of  fear, rejection, evil, and temptation through love: It alludes to how the love of Christ helps overcome all obstacles and turmoil of the world.
“Love takes no pleasure in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things” (1 Corinthians 13:6).

While I’m not born-again, here is a testimony of how I came across Pam Sheppard Ministries and how I learned how love and trust in the Lord conquers fear.

My mother and I were extremely into the occult. We read the books of Edgar Cayse, bought healing stones, visited psychic fairs at his headquarters, etc. I myself was particularly involved in the New Age Movement through receiving energy healing (reiki) through videos on the Internet to alleviate severe Eczema. Usually, I had a set number of channels that I would receive the reiki from: There was about 3-4 of them that I preferred. However, I sought a new user that could offer stronger ‘benefits.’ The subsequent Youtuber I found claimed that he could open all 72 chakras of the body through various spirits and reiki symbols, which he would send to those viewing his videos. He also had an assistant with him that would amplify the effects.

Now moving back slightly earlier in the week, my mother had just recently started reading the Bible and gotten increasing religious. She quoted the verse Deuteronomy 18:10-12 and wished for me to refrain from New Age practices like she had, “Let no one be found among you who sacrifices his son or daughter in the fire, practices divination or conjury, interprets omens, practices sorcery, casts spells, consults a medium or familiar spirit, or inquires of the dead. For whoever does these things is detestable to the LORD.” Personally, I felt like the occult had more meat, love, and understanding than any Christian church that I had ever seen. So, I was resistant.

Needless to say, after watching the Youtuber, I felt increasingly ‘off’ for the next 1-2 days. The symptoms were like a spiritual cold: I felt inexplicably weak, drained, and off-center. It was when I had to admit, my mother was probably right: The New Age was no good after all. Therefore, I threw out all my New Age stuff and got ready to start a new leaf as a dedicated, religious Christian. (At that point, I thought ‘religious’ was potentially a good word. I’ve come a long way since then.)

A major problem was my mother had no idea about how repentance worked. She claims at each night, we should ask God to forgive us and cleanse us of our sins. We must make it our resolve to be clean in the sight of the Lord and pray constantly for the spiritual well-being of ourselves and our loved ones. The latter is understandable. Although, it also echoed the behavior of Job, whose fear and lack of trust in the Lord resulted in him becoming self-righteous, fearful, and most of all RELIGIOUS. Everything seemed to be like more of a perfectionistic performance where no one garnered any enjoyment, let alone bear any fruit.

I was choking on all the sins that I would do throughout the day. I was counting them up like ants. Not to mention, I was struggling with changing my mindset from the laxity of the occult to the rigidness of religiosity. It seemed like every thought seemed like the wrong one. Then, I heard a doctrine where the Lord hears your thoughts and uses them to place judgment upon you from a pastor, who also joked about people sent to Hell if they didn’t accept Jesus. That’s when I got really torn-up on the inside: I felt incredibly guilty for my involvement in the occult and most of all, I was afraid. Terrified of myself and everyone around me. Scared to death of my mistakes and other people’s.

That is when blasphemous thoughts ramped up in my mind. All day. Every day. Every hour. Things got so bad between the endless onslaught of thoughts against Christ and worshiping the Devil. I was throwing up after nearly every meal from anxiety of where my salvation stood. I lost twelve pounds. A doctor mentioned that my blood pressure was low, likely from the lack of food.

I started attending church to curb my ceaseless torment from what I felt was a spiritual attack from the Enemy for leaving the occult. From what I understood, the Enemy couldn’t attack you in church. Yet, I was. It didn’t make sense to me. The deeper I was falling into religion, the deeper I was falling into insanity.

It was in this severe condition that I found Pam Sheppard Ministries through an article that I found on opening chakras and torment. After some deliberation, I took the leap to question everything I have ever known and embark on a spiritual journey (which I still continue today.)

Making that comment asking for Pastor Pam’s help was the best decision that I’ve ever made in my life.

From Pastor Pam, I learned that I wasn’t born again. It wasn’t my job to make myself repent to Christ. I had to wait on the Holy Spirit to rebirth my spirit on the Lord’s time. One bad thought wasn’t condemning than any other thought that I’ve had. I also learned God wasn’t looking for perfection. He often uses mistakes for spiritual growth and development. If people could reach perfection like religious people (myself at one time) tend to, then why did God need to die and be resurrected at the cross to cleanse His Elect’s sins?

Most importantly, my torment was virtually defeated by this simple lesson:

Trust in the Lord. He knows you better than you know you. If there is no defeat, there is no getting saved. He /loves/ you.

You got to understand, Pastor Pam saved my life with her love, guidance, and experience. She’s always patient and kind, telling the truth in love. I owe the bright, young woman that I am today to her. She gave me the affirmation which said, ‘In Christ, there is nothing to fear, and HE says perfect love casts out fear.’

It’s an honor to be a part of Pastor Pam’s ministry and serve under its namesake. I know without the Lord guiding me here, I might not be walking the planet nor find unfathomable trust in Him for my salvation.

Here is the link to Pastor Pam’s article that overhauled everything that I’ve ever known about religion and the occult: It started the journey that led me here.…/christians-who-open…/

Wounds as an opening to the soul

28 Jul

In our life, we all suffered from some deep hurts even traumas sometimes. All this has left a mark in us, a wound. I know I see one in myself.

The enemy is looking for any weaknesses we have to infiltrate and use ourselves against ourselves to serve his evil plan. For me it allowed him to manipulate me into staying passive and fearful through low self esteem, trust issues and pessimism.

It is very important that we learn how to deal and close those wounds that hinder us unaware ; for that honesty is key.

Pam is a skillfull and patient counselor, and her therapist experience is key. We tend to neglect mental health and psychological issues, but as our mind is part of our soul : to heal the mind is healing the soul.

So I advice you, during your religious detox, to claim back your soul through dealing with your issues and close all the wounds of your soul.

Call us : +1888-818-1117

A Generational Curse or a Plague?

25 Jun
The Plagues of End Times

Do you believe that curses have been passed on to you from your ancestors, as far back as four generations? If this is what you believe, then you are in denial of the scripture that assures you that those who are in Christ have been delivered from all the power of darkness and the wicked one cannot touch us. (Col. 1:12; 1 John 5:18). No curse can go through the cross of Christ and have dominion over those who are in Christ. We are not under a curse once we have come through the cross. Every spiritual blessing is for us who are in Christ Jesus (Eph. 1:3). Anyone that insists they are cursed needs to know who they are in Christ, and maybe who Christ is as the Spirit of adoption (Rom.8:15).

What I have found is that those who have been involved in deliverance ministries have actually brought a curse upon themselves by accepting a specific generational curse as a fact. As a result, their belief in this teaching actually creates a self-fulfilling prophecy that the worker and the captive actually bring to pass together.As Paul warned the Galatians, any one who adds to or detracts from the gospel of Jesus Christ will become CURSED.

Ironically, the generational curses teaching adds to and detracts from the gospel of Jesus Christ, particularly the power of the cross. This teaching promotes a law that hinders grace, and it is by grace that we are set free from the curse of the law. Consequently, those who uphold the “generational curses” doctrine which states that Satan and his demons create curses for Christians because of ones ancestors, actually opens the door to a curse.

Taken a step further, this false teaching actually creates the fear that put those who believe in it in even more bondage than what they may originally have sustained! We as believers “have not received a spirit of fear but power, love and a sound mind.” If you believe this teaching, you are risking the soundness of your mental state, bringing on further anxiety and stress that may “cause you to faint” when you enter into spiritual battle against demons.

Therefore, if you stand in spiritual warfare with a deliverance worker against a self-proclaimed curse that was never there in the first place, you forfeit the grace that is needed to set you free. This teaching is particularly dangerous because it implies that Jesus didn’t break the curse on the cross. As such, it stands to reason that if you believe that you are in bondage to a generational curse, then you must not be born again.

If you are not born again then you are STILL under the power of darkness and Jesus did not remove your sins and His blood has not cleansed you from sin. Therefore, you have NOT been translated out of darkness and the spiritual weapons of Ephesians 6 will not work for you, if you are in bondage to a generational curse.

So what does the devil get out of this false teaching?  He gets those who teach it and those who believe it to lose grace and to weaken their faith.  

Consider this. There is a difference between a curse and a plague. By the cross, Jesus delivers us from a curse because when we become born again, old things become new and the past is washed in the precious blood of the Lamb, which includes any sins that your ancestors may have committed that could possibly affect YOU. A curse is specific in that it
is an appeal to a supernatural power for harm to come to specific people,places and things.

A plague is “different.”

A plague is much more general. It’s like a tornado. When it hits NO ONE is spared from its effects and even the innocent who are simply in the wrong place at the time of the tornado. The innocent get swept up with the guilty.

A plague is a widespread affliction, a sudden destructive influx or an outbreak. It can also be persistent, but it is also infectious–in the spirit, a plague can be compared to a highly infectious disease like The Coronavirus. The impact of Covid 19 is plague-like—-not discriminating between guilty and innocent, good and evil.

Jesus warned the elect of God to “come out of Her, lest ye be partakers of HER sins and receive of HER plagues.” If He is referring to the institutional church, then the innocent will be partakers of the plagues along with the guilty. Those who hear the warning and continue to remain in a defiled place are subject to a plague, and the elect of God are not exempt from it. For what has been prophesied 20 centuries ago by the Apostle John on the Isle of Patmos cannot be changed. Consequently, it is presumptively foolish for ministers to believe they can stop or even mitigate the effects of Coronavirus with prayers when it is Jesus Himself who shall release the metaphorical rider of the pale horse of the book of Revelation:

When He (the Lamb) broke open the fourth seal, I heard the voice of the fourth living creature call out, “Come.” So I looked, and behold, an ashen (pale greenish gray) horse [like a corpse, representing death and pestilence]; and its rider’s name was Death; and Hades (the realm of the dead) was following with him. They were given authority and power over a fourth part of the earth, to kill with the sword and with famine and with plague (pestilence, disease) and by the wild beasts of the earth.
Revelation 6:7-8 – Amplified

In “Come Out of Her, God’s People you will find these words:

‘There are many who practice a professing Christian religion who live under a curse because they have either added to or taken away from the gospel of Jesus Christ.  I have found from our studies that demons are having a field day with professing Catholics, Mormons, (Latter Day Saints) Jehovah Witnesses, Coptics, Christian Scientists and others.  When you profess to be a Christian yet Jesus is not Lord and the Holy Spirit is not God in your so-called Christian faith, demons will use this fact against you as an occasion to rule in your life.  The demons will be successful because you are practicing a religion that has “added to or detracted” from the gospel.”

Since most of those who contact Pam Sheppard Ministries to be set free from demonic torment were also attending a church that could not deliver them, I simply asked them to give me 90 days of no church attendance. Unfortunately, those who can’t do so are not delivered. They are not cursed but “plagued.”

Let a word to the wise be sufficient.

The Tribulation: Signs to Wonder About

God is the one opening eyes

17 Jun

In this testimony, I will share with you how God got me to see the action of the fake Jesus in my life and how I had a deep relationship with him and not the only real God as I thought while coming in this ministry.

The realest revelation ever

My name is Elisabeth. I am a french Caribbean young woman, raised catholic deeply involved in church since a young age. I served mass, sang in the choir, was in a prayer group dedicaded to Mary and went to Medugorje (pilgrimage place of Mary worldwide) twice. All was kind of well between me and “”god”” until I saw a video where a girl shared her trip-to-hell dream. I never heard hell talked about and suddenly I became aware of that and VERY afraid. Here began religious torment.
October 2019, I attended a 7th day adventist church. There I learned about how unbiblical and witchcrafty the Catholic Church was and it broke me. I entered another religious bondage through harsh legalism. I was already in torment, obsessed with dying in hell and avoiding damnation through religious means as prayers to get saved or intense bible reading and fasting. I threw away almost all of my clothes (too sexy), cut my 7 years old dreadlocks that I cherished out of fear and had more supernatural experiences than ever before like voices announcing my death, pseudo-prophecies etc.
Tired of being OBVIOUSLY misled by these voices that told me I was born again when I was still knowingly in sin, I started detox from religion and calls with Pastor Pam. I red parts of the Fake Jesus and I knew that as being religious especially catholic I must’ve been worshipping the fake Jesus. But it was not personal. Until that day.

I was reading a paper about catholicism that Pamela Sheppard gave me to review my past. I got to think about all the practices I got involved with. Most of that stuff I forgot to be honest. While I was going back in memory, an image of a place kept coming into my mind. I saw myself in a highly spiritual worship place where I prayed Mary with my group, near the huge cross in the garden. I didn’t understand why I was seeing this place but it was like something was drawing me there. I had completely forgotten about that but it kept coming back in my mind like a movie scene. I focused on that, trying to remember what happened and suddenly I WAS ABLE TO SEE THE WHOLE MOVIE IN THE NARRATOR PERSPECTIVE so to speak. That place was where I established clearly my contract with the fake Jesus through a supernatural experience. The day it happened was my last day before going to France to study thus my last day in Martinique. I felt drawn to that cross, like someone calling me. I went closer to it almost not controlling my body anymore I knelt and was submerged by a feeling of peace, love and a supernatural touch. I vowed “I give you my life completely”. I even heard in the flashback the voice say “this is where we must the first time”. From that point I was able to see where and how it all started. From the day I thought I met an angel of God to save me from death to this moment. It was really a time travel, but I could see the spiritual behind-the-scenes. I was literally re-living those situations with the knowledge of today, and that’s how I understood clear as day how Satan tricked me into giving my life to him.
I had a lot of supernatural experiences before, voices and visions, very emotional stuff but this one was different. I’ve never been able to see my life that way and would have probably never been able to see this in particular on my own. It was by far the realest revelation I’ve ever received and it really brushed away all the doubts I had before.
Deception is really everywhere but you really can’t see until God opens your eyes. I forced myself into receiving what I learned here, but doubts remained until that day happened.
What you need to KNOW you will know. So even if doubts creep up, just wait and see!

When the Wheat and the Weeds Look Alike!

30 May

I have been watching churchfolk for over 4 decades. On this spiritual journey, I have witnessed dedication and commitment among people who fall in both categories: weeds and wheat. In fact, those who I recall being the most zealous and supportive of the institutional church have been people proven to have been the tares, aka the weeds, as Jesus Christ revealed “among Satan’s seed.”

Certainly, I believe that the people who are consistent followers and online members of Pam Sheppard Ministries are sincere. THEY HAVE NOT BEEN PLAYING A GAME TO SURVIVE IN FEAR OF BEING BANNED OR BLOCKED IF THEY SAY OR DO ANYTHING I WOULD CONSIDER UNACCEPTABLE.

I am especially thinking of those who have been helped, relieved of torment, Those who taken back their free will and who have made a commitment to stay involved with this ministry, not out of fear that they won’t be born again if they leave. That sort of fear is why many remain committed to a dead institutional church in spite of clear evidence of manipulation, domination and control.

ARE the members of Pam Sheppard Ministries chosen for salvation? without a doubt, each of our members have been committed from at least 1 to 8 years. therefore, as I know them by their fruit, I believe the members are of the elect because the Bible says that NO ONE WILL SEEK GOD WITHOUT HIM CAUSING THEM TO DO SO. THE TRUTH IS THAT THE DARKNESS UPON ALL OF HUMANITY MANDATES GOD HIMSELF TO CAUSE US TO WANT HIM.

Therefore, if sinners And people who once had false conversions embrace what I teach and preach, it was God who caused them to embrace it. As such, I suspect that all of my committed members are of the elect. But I can’t say with absolute certainty that everyone we have served will be born again because there is a time when the wheat and the weeds look alike.

Jesus told them another parable: “The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field. 25 But while everyone was sleeping, his enemy came and sowed weeds among the wheat, and went away. 26 When the wheat sprouted and formed heads, then the weeds also appeared. 27 “The owner’s servants came to him and said, ‘Sir, didn’t you sow good seed in your field? Where then did the weeds come from?’ 28 “‘An enemy did this,’ he replied. “The servants asked him, ‘Do you want us to go and pull them up?’ 29 “‘No,’ he answered, ‘because while you are pulling the weeds, you may uproot the wheat with them. 30 Let both grow together until the harvest. At that time I will tell the harvesters: First collect the weeds and tie them in bundles to be burned; then gather the wheat and bring it into my barn.’”Matthew 13:24-30
I give you this scripture because none of us really knows for sure who is one of the chosen ones because there is a time when the wheat and the tare (weeds) look alike.

Here is the Lord’s own interpretation of His own parable:
He answered, “The one who sowed the good seed is the Son of Man. 38 The field is the world, and the good seed stands for the people of the kingdom. The weeds are the people of the evil one, 39 and the enemy who sows them is the devil. The harvest is the end of the age, and the harvesters are angels. 40 “As the weeds are pulled up and burned in the fire, so it will be at the end of the age. 41 The Son of Man will send out his angels, and they will weed out of his kingdom everything that causes sin and all who do evil. 42 They will throw them into the blazing furnace, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth. 43 Then the righteous will shine like the sun in the kingdom of their Father. Whoever has ears, let them hear.Matthew 13:37-43

So it is quite simple.

Those who come to this ministry for help are either one of God’s seed or one of the enemy’s seed. Satan does not usually torment his own seed. So I suspect those who Satan torments belong to God.

BUT I DONT KNOW WITH ABSOLUTE CERTAINTY AS I AM REQUIRED TO WALK BY FAITH. As such, as long as you demonstrate that you want my help and I see progress, I don’t dwell on “whose seed you are!!!!”
The generic problem is that most i have sought God out of fear. Why? Because they have been religious and so they were trained to seek Him. But I find that such folk believe in Hell more than they believe in the ONE who created hell. they believe in damnation more than they believe salvation.

Organized religion has caused its followers and seekers to “not be free.” Some live and die committed to a system of taskmasters and therefore do not recognize freedom. that is a problem for a ministry like this. We set you free from the bondage of religion and then you label us and try to force us to steal the independence that We fostered in YOU! You simply cannot live without a taskmaster!

You want to be independent and so you resent having to seek help from anyone, so We don’t take it personal. YOU ARE INDEPENDENT. We live in a society where we are always bartering for help. dentists. Stores. mechanics. Just because we seek others for help does not make us any less independent.

perhaps you have sought help from PSM. Believe me, you are as independent as you are when you use other service providers. Seeking help requires commitment. That commitment does not have to be permanent. You are in this for the help. Do not put yourself back in bondage. Remember this. The groups and making comments is not for us.


So use us to work on you. That is what we are here for. You pay me for deliverance counseling just like you pay a mechanic or a dentist. As they don’t sit around hoping you will make a lifetime commitment to them,


God is the one who creates bonding and lifetime commitment. I know who those people are because of their actions of faith. Faith without works is dead. If you don’t feel within your inner being a lifetime commitment to this ministry, we understand.

Be free and do YOU!

The Lord’s Plan Is Greater

25 May

It’s quite evident, seeing how Satan came after us, that he had a plan. Yet, the Lord God Himself did too. And, the Lord’s plan is greater.

Satan A Limited Agenda

As manipulating and strong the Devil is, his power is surfaced to a limit. In no way can anything the Devil do be out of his own discord. Everything is monitored by God and he can only go forth as permitted.

This causes many to go to a line of thinking that God should just destroy the Devil. Which, God will do so, but He is not done with him yet.

All of us here at the ministry can personally attest that the Devil has an entire formula, and calculated motivation to lead us to destruction. Our Pastors words ring true, “different folks for different folks.” Each of us were led by Satan in a different way. All of our histories, cultures, traditions, personalities were part of the Devil’s operation for us to fail. But, God had other plans….

Born Again And Born To Hope

God’s predestined plan for us to be born-again destroyed all the Devil had planned. Of course the Devil is always planning destruction born again or not. But, the overall “course” of life unto evil that ensnared us was broken and we were given a new way of living.

One thing I had such bondage to being in the visible church was my past. I carried such a long shadow from my sins, and always felt ashamed. I could never be free from the memories that kept me looking back. As much as I wanted to be free, I was bound.

Becoming born again THROUGH the Resurrection of Jesus Christ of Nazareth redeemed me, and washed away my past. As if all the shadows dashed away by light. I could finally be new and not held by what I did. In other words, I have such hope.

And it’s this hope I see with our ministry. The hope that Jesus of Nazareth is the God of salvation. And although the Devil took some of our past, I just see how all of us don’t care and have no regrets, shame, and fear about the past. Which is encouraging, since many people in religion have cut off their past, and live in dread, guilt, and pain of it.

Feel Stuck?

New life, means new. And if you are so overwhelmed with your past, it could be an indication you are still in sin.

We cannot psychologically brainwash ourselves through religion to bring change and forget the past. The supernatural power of God’s salvation involves no such process. Call 888-818-1117 our ministry hotline to get hope, encouragement, and clarity. THE LORD’S PLAN IS GREATER!!!!

Living With Addiction

20 May

Living with addiction is an extremely draining, and even a hostile environment. It seems as all the help and good you want to offer is rejected, and ignored—sucked into a black hole. Recently, I have received revelation with what to do if you live in a home with someone who abuses themselves with alcohol and drugs.

Step One

The first thing you must do if the person does not have an aggressive behavior is too indirectly confront them in the spirit of gentleness. Since, a lot of addicts take offense easily. It’s best during confronting to make it about yourself. For example, “I cannot do this anymore, it’s hurting me.” People who are in addiction often do not have self-awareness of how they harm others and themselves.

If you live with an aggressive person, confrontation is not the best and can be dangerous. Depending on the circumstance you may have to leave the environment, and go through the hassle of moving out.

Remember, always try to confront the person when they are sober. And make sure the timing is right. Do not confront them if they are too emotional, angry, and upset. Confrontation is always going to be uncomfortable, but if the person sees your perspective then they might get help. If they deny the confrontation and continue their addiction here is the next step.

Step Two

Boundaries, boundaries, boundaries!!!!

Maybe people who have been living with addiction are often blinded by the toxicity of the person’s problems. Blinded because of affections, emotions, and thus turn a “blind eye” to the person. And, in order to preserve themselves and their relationship with the addicted person they will become “servants” of the addiction.

Psychology calls it “co-dependency” but the best way to describe it is “toxic help.” The one living with addiction helps in every way, does things, takes care of them, but the one thing this person avoids is the abuse itself. It’s almost like how doctors often take care of the symptoms by prescribing medication but not taking care of the cause of the symptoms. In this analogy, the toxic help, will go on forever, never actually achieving any results.

Overtime, the person helping will begin to think they are responsible for “saving” the person. That they are the only ones who can help them. The error of this thinking leads to a devastating life of sadness, despair, frustration, and pain.

Step Two Contiuned

So, back to boundaries. A person struggling with “toxic help” has had the abusive person’s addictions walk all over them. What needs to be done is an assertive measure to refuse the addiction’s power from crossing over the boundary.

Sometimes this may be leaving the environment, or ending the relationship or “putting it on hold”. Temporary distance, maybe be required. Less interaction, less attention, are all ways to set up boundaries. Since, ultimately the goal of the abusive person is for you to go along with their addiction in all its excuses and rationalizations.

Boundaries can be difficult to set up if you have been so drawn over with the person’s burdens. You may need time alone to assess what needs to be done, and what boundaries can no longer be crossed. For example, no longer drinking in the presence of an alcoholic is a boundary.


People who abuse alcohol and drugs are extremely unpredictable. Anytime you interact with them, you must come in a “spirit of gentleness” or “innocent as a dove.” Yet, at the same time you must be an undercover “wise serpent” judging, and handling the situation with wisdom.

Never approach an addict with hostility, frustration or anger. It will only make things worse.

You have to know the addict, and yourself. Honestly, sometimes it’s just easiest to leave the environment, and stay somewhere else.

Step Three: Don’t Grow Weary

Living with addiction is a subtle gloomy, dark, and chaotic world. Everything good, full of life is sucked and pulled into the addiction. The Devil loves using people with addiction to create all hell, sadness, and havoc in the homes of loved ones; to steal your joy, and healthy attitude, and good outlook on life. Don’t fall in the trap of pessimism! Keep being optimistic….

Here at Pam Sheppard Ministries we can give you all the support, and comfort you need. In these times of quarantine it may be even more draining and tiresome living with addicted, abusive people. We are 11th hour workers, here online and you can reach out to us. Call now at 888-818-1117 or email

You are not responsible for bearing another person’s addiction. You are responsible though for not allowing their addiction to ruin YOUR LIFE! Be mentally strong, and fight the fight of your soul.

The Holy Spirit Moved on Me to Say that I am a Prophet

20 May

As I was speaking in the Zoom Sunday Service, I was feeling what is akin to righteous anger at all the nay sayers. Was it my anger or that of the Holy Ghost?
I suspect it was both. But it did not feel like MY anger. For my outburst shocked even me as I intended to teach and not “to declare what thus saith the Lord.”

Based upon my own shock at what boldly came out of my mouth, I am reminded of when Jesus told His disciples that when they spoke, it would not be them speaking but the spirit of the Lord. It is recorded in the gospels as He was sending them out as described in Matthew 10.

This is how it felt. LIKE I WAS NOT SPEAKING. MY FAITH AND CONFIDENCE WAS THROUGH THE ROOF, BEYOND MY NORMAL, NATURAL STATE. I thought to myself, “Who is this? It is not me so therefore it must be God or the devil.

Recently I have been considering and mentioning here and there that I am getting my disciples ready for the end, that I am fine with dying and going to be with the Lord and leaving the ministry to them. So I suspect that I have been angering the Holy Ghost for speaking of and accepting dying when I am healthy enough to be alive when the Lord returns.

So in truth, I expect I will be alive when Jesus Christ comes. I am just an “all options good or bad” , “if not” kind of person. In other words, I plan for all possibilities. What I have actually done is simply face death and in so doing , I am no longer afraid of dying before my work is completed. Much work is left to do as I have only begun the training process for some. Even my written curriculum is only partially completed.

Nevertheless, the Coronavirus has clearly shown me that I don’t miss the world, that I am glad to be away from people and their foolishness, and that I desire that Jesus come back RIGHT NOW!

What I anticipate is my connection to Matthew 10:

You will be brought before governors and kings for My sake, as a testimony to them and to the Gentiles. But when they deliver you up, do not worry about how or what you should speak. For it will be given to you in that hour what you should speak; for it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father who speaks in you.Matthew 10:18-20

That is exactly how it felt on Sunday, May 17, 2020, like someone else was speaking through me.

It was mild. Easy to “overlook” —-not like when an evil spirit actually did speak through me almost half a century ago. When I was unknowingly a practicing occultist in 1975, a fallen angel stepped into me AND SPOKE!

I felt like my throat was grabbed at the larynx. At first, I became dizzy, almost incoherent when my spirit left my body and I looked back at myself from a corner in the room and heard myself screaming “let me back in” but the people assembled could not hear me.

That was a frightful thing, believe me!!!

Such. Thing has not happened to me again in 45 years!

It should be noted that last Sunday, I did not leave my body. Instead, my mind went into a kind of “suspended animation.” It was hard to tell, if this was me or if this was NOT me speaking. So notice in this scripture, that while the Lord was talking to the 12, Jesus intentionally spoke these words, knowing that what He said to the twelve would be eventually recorded in the Bible, specifically intended for the 11th hour workers to see:

“Now brother will deliver up brother to death, and a father his child; and children will rise up against parents and cause them to be put to death. And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake. But he who endures to the end will be saved. When they persecute you in this city, flee to another. For assuredly, I say to you, you will not have gone through the cities of Israel before the Son of Man comes.

A disciple is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master. It is enough for a disciple that he be like his teacher, and a servant like his master. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more will they call those of his household! Therefore do not fear them. For there is nothing covered that will not be revealed, and hidden that will not be known.Matthew 10:21-26

In 1979, 2 yrs born again, I heard a voice declare, referring to me, “touch not my anointed and do my prophets no harm.” The man who I would eventually marry in 1988 had harmed me seriously, that very day in the summer of 1979. Later that same night, I heard a voice tell me to go to his house. I refused but the voice would not relent so I got in my car and drove to Billy’s place.

When I I arrived, huge orange flames were blazing through Billy’s windows. I was shocked by the fire, but even more, the voice that sent me there called me a prophet with a quotation that I did know at the time was even in the Bible. Nor did I know then what a prophet was. I thought to myself “all of this stuff is rather spooky!”

There are other signs I have received that suggest that I am an end time prophet—-manifestations that I have been periodically receiving over the years. I admit that there have been a significant number of indications and revelations. . First cautious, and then believing the signs, I was aware that others would not believe me. . So I kept my mouth shut on this for 41 years. Since my trial sermon in 1981, I have been called a preacher, a teacher and evangelist. But not a prophet.

So for two days now, I wondered, “who was that who spoke through me? Was that God, the devil, or did I lose control of the message, and utter what was unplanned?

I find that when God is about to answer a question of mind, He does so in twos, usually it is the second day, that God answers my question. So last night, my question about Sunday was resolved.

In truth, I have been angering God by holding back. So He stepped in and “took over as I was speaking. Like, if YOU won’t say it Pam, I WILL!!!!

You are an end time prophet! If you don’t say it to the people, your faith is limited by your silence.


After 41 years, it’s time to be said.

Relevant Readings

The Cross Applied to Demonic Torment

15 May

The true power and meaning of the cross is often overshadowed by an emphasis on sin yet what about torment? So many today are suffering from some sort of torment inflicted by demons. Perhaps that is because it has not been sufficiently taught and emphasized that the Lord Jesus Christ also bore our torment for the chastisement of OUR peace was upon Him and with His stripes, we are mentally and emotionally HEALED. Why should we endure torment when the Lord has already done so on our behalf so that we might not have to endure it?

Something to think about.

there are certain circumstances wherein God allows torment.  He has His reasons.  If He did not allow it, these entities would not be able to cause torment. God allows it for several reasons.  The most important is to let you know that something is wrong. Torment is a sign that points to the work and influence of deception. In such cases, you would never know the truth and you would continue to give the enemy more control over you by your ignorance. Overcoming the torment will make you ready to help others who are enduring the same affliction that you have overcome. 

Did not the Father suffer cause Jesus to suffer mental and emotional torment as He died on the cross?  Why? So that He would overcome death forever for Himself and for those who believe on Him.  
I have a course on torment.  Below is a small sample, an article and a video. I offer the course for free so send an email request to and you will be sent the complete free source.

Why Do Evil Spirits Torment?

Job, Torment and The Modern Day Captive

Herein, let us focus upon the prophetic report of both Isaiah and David, a word revealed to them hundreds of years before the Lord went to the cross and endured our torment for us.

Who has believed our report? And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed? For He shall grow up before Him as a tender plant, And as a root out of dry ground. He has no form or comeliness; And when we see Him, There is no beauty that we should desire Him. He is despised and rejected by men, A Man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him; He was despised, and we did not esteem Him.

Surely He has borne our griefs And carried our sorrows; Yet we esteemed Him stricken, Smitten by God, and afflicted. But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed. All we like sheep have gone astray; We have turned, every one, to his own way; And the Lord has laid on Him the iniquity of us all. He was oppressed and He was afflicted, Yet He opened not His mouth; He was led as a lamb to the slaughter, And as a sheep before its shearers is silent, So He opened not His mouth. He was taken from prison and from judgment, And who will declare His generation? For He was cut off from the land of the living; For the transgressions of My people He was stricken. And they made His grave with the wicked— But with the rich at His death, Because He had done no violence, Nor was any deceit in His mouth.

Did not the Father cause His Son to suffer torment on the cross for US? Take a look at two key prophecies declared by two Old Testament prophets, Isaiah and David.

Therefore I will divide Him a portion with the great, And He shall divide the spoil with the strong, Because He poured out His soul unto death, And He was numbered with the transgressors, And He bore the sin of many, And made intercession for the transgressors.Isaiah 53:1-12 –
This was God the Son’s personal torment on the cross, as prophetically foreshadowed the prophet Isaiah centuries before it happened.

David saw it too. the Father revealed to David the Lord’s mental anguish and torment.

My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me? Why are You so far from helping Me, And from the words of My groaning? O My God, I cry in the daytime, but You do not hear; And in the night season, and am not silent. But You are holy, Enthroned in the praises of Israel. Our fathers trusted in You; They trusted, and You delivered them. They cried to You, and were delivered; They trusted in You, and were not ashamed. But I am a worm, and no man; A reproach of men, and despised by the people. All those who see Me ridicule Me; They shoot out the lip, they shake the head, saying, “He trusted in the Lord, let Him rescue Him; Let Him deliver Him, since He delights in Him!” But You are He who took Me out of the womb; You made Me trust while on My mother’s breasts. I was cast upon You from birth. From My mother’s womb You have been My God.

Be not far from Me, For trouble is near; For there is none to help. Many bulls have surrounded Me; Strong bulls of Bashan have encircled Me. They gape at Me with their mouths, Like a raging and roaring lion. I am poured out like water, And all My bones are out of joint; My heart is like wax; It has melted within Me. My strength is dried up like a potsherd, And My tongue clings to My jaws; You have brought Me to the dust of death. For dogs have surrounded Me; The congregation of the wicked has enclosed Me. They pierced My hands and My feet; I can count all My bones. They look and stare at Me. They divide My garments among them, And for My clothing they cast lots.

But You, O Lord, do not be far from Me; O My Strength, hasten to help Me! Deliver Me from the sword, My precious life from the power of the dog. Save Me from the lion’s mouth And from the horns of the wild oxen! You have answered Me. I will declare Your name to My brethren; In the midst of the assembly I will praise You. You who fear the Lord, praise Him! All you descendants of Jacob, glorify Him, And fear Him, all you offspring of Israel!

My praise shall be of You in the great assembly; I will pay My vows before those who fear Him. The poor shall eat and be satisfied; Those who seek Him will praise the Lord. Let your heart live forever! All the ends of the world Shall remember and turn to the Lord, And all the families of the nations Shall worship before You. For the kingdom is the Lord’s, And He rules over the nations. All the prosperous of the earth Shall eat and worship; All those who go down to the dust Shall bow before Him, Even he who cannot keep himself alive. A posterity shall serve Him. It will be recounted of the Lord to the next generation, They will come and declare His righteousness to a people who will be born, That He has done this.Psalm 22:1-31 –
So to all those in demonic torment, on the cross, Jesus took your torment upon Himself. He bore it SO THAT YOU WOULD NOT HAVE TO BEAR IT. So Tell your demons THAT!!!!!!

I have been born again for 43 years and I have not been tormented even one day, before or after. What is the difference between me and you? Nothing other than your mind has been a garbage can that allows evil spirits to have its way and my mind has been at peace, shielded by His shed blood for me on the cross.

Once you receive the work that God Himself suffered for your torment, your obsessions will stop and the evil spirits in your mind will be cast out and bound by His cross where He was crucified with the chastisement of Your peace taken upon Himself.

You Are A Deliverance Worker!

26 Mar
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When I was religious I use to think that I had to search “land and sea” for some kind of deliverance worker to set me free. It seemed everywhere I went, no one really understood my complex spiritual issues. Yet, when I arrived to Pam Sheppard Ministries and began learning about deliverance, I discovered an important deliverance worker…ME! You see, you are a deliverance worker for your own soul!


I recently watched a video of Pastor Pam Sheppard explain this concept. She goes onto tell how there exist many self “deliverance” ministries who give you prayers and such things. Yet, these traditions and practices do not have power and can leave you in an even worse condition.

Self-deliverance is simply YOU working out the deliverance of YOUR soul. It’s you taking a STEP, a MOVE, and WALK to actively GAIN BACK your ground from the Devil and his demons. Proclaiming your freedom by knowing truth, and REVOKING and REFUSING are what is involved.

Centrality of Truth

No amount of prayers, and “affirmations” can deliver you. I know this to be true. I would pray and pray, “decree and declare” to a vain defeat. Simply because in all my efforts I did not know nor understand the TRUTH, and the real reason behind my problems.

For example, I recently went to the hospital because of a horrible blistering migraine. Part of my going to the hospital was to get a diagnosis of why I was having them. But, to my (not) surprise they only gave me drugs and numbed the throbbing pain. Although the pain left, I never the less was left with the same issue and condition and lo and behold exactly a weak later I would be struck with another migraine! They only would treat the symptoms and not the underlying cause…

It’s in this way that nearly all deliverance workers operate they only treat the symptoms. And, they analyze their success by the “symptoms” being healed and not the underlying cause.

Doctor Patient Deliverance Analogy

It’s an excellent analogy to use: doctors and patients. You see, doctors have to figure out what’s wrong with you and your medical condition. However, they can only do so much to understand what’s wrong with you. At some point you will have to explain your issues, pay attention to your symptoms, and such so the doctor can properly diagnose you and provide treatment.

I would go from “doctor” to “doctor” to get healed in and even outside the church, but only superficially. My symptoms would leave, but then would return or new symptoms would strike. A common issue is that they did not have any experience with sound-deliverance. It wasn’t until I arrived to Pam Sheppard Ministries did I receive diagnosis of my spiritual condition and receiving true freedom and healing.

How can a doctor diagnose a medical condition if a doctor is only in med-school? You see, our Pastor and ministry leaders have a combined unique experiences and knowledge that are equipped to properly “diagnose” your issues and get the results you NEED.

Things To Do

Part of the process of deliverance is “self.” The self, or soul of a captive must be liberated. And, it can only be liberated if the captive is willing to also work out their freedom. At our ministry we effectively give courses and books to help you in your personal road to spiritual recovery. If you desire to learn more about true deliverance, and need deliverance contact us. But, be prepared to put in the work, pay attention and FIGHT.