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It will now be six and a half years ago, before I came to find Pam Sheppard Ministries. At that time, I was hearing voices 24 hours a day and 7 days a week. It all started gradually when they would say one word every 5 to 10 minutes. They would say things like “leave”. Later on, it gradually turned into constant, long running words telling me to do things and talking about Jesus.
The voices grew stronger after I visited a psychic, who claimed that she could help me. The voices started telling me to leave my job and not to go back into that building. One day, I obeyed those evil spirits and I left my job. That was a big mistake. As soon as I obeyed them, I gave them authority and control over me, and with that, those evil spirits continued a 24/7 harassment, while not giving me any breaks or pauses.
Then I discovered an article online written by Pastor Pam Sheppard. I called her and when we spoke about my situation, she had knowledge about this subject and understood what was happening to me. One of the ways her knowledge was evident was when she made it clear that me obeying those spirits was the absolute wrong thing to do. She discerned fear coming from me and she also knew that I was not really born again, even though I thought I was.
Eventually, Pastor Pam started counseling me and I watched many of her videos, read her articles, and read her books. One of the many great things that counseling with Pastor Pam did was help me take back my free will. Like she says in the video below, we worked and worked and worked until I took back my God given free will!!! I am holding it dear to me.
After being in counseling and mentoring with Pastor Pam for over 5 years I have progressed tremendously. The voices dramatically decreased to the point where I would go days without hearing from them. To me that is a true miracle. I have found multiple jobs and have been able to work in different areas that I felt was a better fit for me, compared to before where I was living in fear about being unemployed and unsure of when I would ever receive another pay check again.
Years ago as a teenager I “accepted Jesus”, when prompted by the preacher to walk down the aisle and do such a thing. Yet looking back I realized I “accepted Jesus” out of pressure and fear to do what was expected of me. I followed a projected promise that suggested I would be saved just by accepting him.
Yet when those evil spirits came to harass me my prayers, church attendance, and reading the Bible only made the voices come stronger and led to an increasing mention about what “Jesus” thinks I should do.
During the time of hearing voices constantly, they would often speak about Jesus. Something did not seem right. Everything they wanted me to do was not fruitful and did not help me in my life whatsoever. Instead, anything I listened to them about put me in danger.
After being in counseling with Pastor Pam she taught me that I had a false conversion. Once I found out about the false conversion I had, I realized that I was right to be suspicious of the worship and religious practices I was getting myself involved in. I finally started to realize that I was worshipping the fake Jesus and praying to him. When I found that out, I immediately stopped worshipping the fake Jesus and removed myself out of religious behaviors that were deeply rooted in my life.
One of the ways I advanced against those evil spirits harassing me was when I renounced the false conversion I had. Not too long after that I no longer heard voices in my head saying “Jesus thinks this”, “Jesus thinks that”. Still, I wanted those evil spirits to leave me alone and not talk to me about anything at all because they were still commenting about everything I was doing. Thankfully, eventually I went from hearing voices constantly and consistently to then having significant and dramatic reduction as I continued being counseled and mentored by Pastor Pam. I was feeling relieved and grateful for this.
As far as true salvation, I learned from Pastor Pam about waiting on God’s call to cause my salvation. Besides, there was plenty of work I needed to do on my soul due to all the years since childhood of damage, pain, insecurity, and worries lodged deep inside me.
Once a week for 5 years, I had counseling sessions with Pastor Pam. I adored and enjoyed her company whether on the phone or in person. I attribute much of my improvements to her patience, wisdom, motivation, and support. I developed a closeness to her that meant a lot to me.
As I peeled off my passive nature that I have had for years, I discovered the real me was a risk taker at times and not a follower. Raised in California, I decided to make a change and move over to the East Coast, to New York Upstate and live near Pastor Pam. It didn’t matter what anyone thought about that decision or what was thought of as popular. All that mattered was that I did what was best for me.
Yet, throughout those five years, Pastor Pam noticed that though I had made so much progress, and was a big part of her Ministerial team, dutifully helping, and seeking to continue to help, presenting at her Bible studies and so on, but why was I not born again yet? In fact, there would be moments at a Bible study session where I would start sobbing as scripture was read, but it did not transition into a salvation experience. This happened multiple times.
Nevertheless, Pastor Pam continued with her mentorship and counseling with me. I remained a loyal member in her Ministry, helping her as she gave me assignments that she believed I was capable of doing.
Then Pastor Pam had her annual workshop from Friday July 19th to Sunday July 21st. I was a part of the Pam Sheppard Ministries (PSM) committee that would prepare for the workshop and reserve the location of where the workshop would be held. It turns out that the location that Pam Sheppard Ministries was supposed to have the workshop in, was only going to be available on Friday July 19th and we had to make arrangements to find another location for Saturday and Sunday.
Thankfully we found another good location, and were able to reserve a nice space to accommodate the workshop. The new location happened to be the same complex that Pastor Pam got born again. Many years ago she used that same room to hold church services in the big room where our PSM workshop would be held.
The first day of the workshop went well. We were introduced to a young innovative newcomer, Evan, who just a few months before, became born again after reading one of Pastor Pam’s books and watching a series of her videos. We enjoyed Chinese food and gathered around as we shared the different ideas we had for the Ministry.
The next day on Saturday, Pastor Pam preached a powerful sermon as she included the emphasis and amplification about the resurrection of Jesus Christ of Nazareth. In addition to the many important topics we discussed, Pastor Pam went around the room asking who felt they needed deliverance. Those who needed prayer and assistance with deliverance were helped that day by Pastor Pam. She spoke to me as well about my need for deliverance. I knew I was still battling with evil spirits who were trying to discourage and distract me.
Later that day the attendees enjoyed a hearty meal at a popular restaurant. I had no idea what was to come the next day.
Yet something was bothering me that Saturday night when I came home to my apartment after that dinner. It was the devil that was bothering me. That evening, an evil spirit spoke through me and laughed mockingly. That night, evil spirits were present with back and forth talk, with the intent to frustrate, place fear, and unrest in me. I called Pastor Pam that night and told her what was going on. She prayed for me. I was glad that she prayed for me and then I went to bed. Yet I had a semi restless night, unable to find peace nor sustained rest while in my own bed. Finally I got some rest and woke up the next morning to get ready for the last day of the workshop with Pam Sheppard Ministries.
On the morning of the last day of PSM’s workshop, while in my apartment, there was a pressure that I felt on my body as I was getting ready for the workshop. Again, those evil spirits were more noticeable than usual, whispering strange words to me, as I was preparing to leave my apartment. When I closed that apartment door to head to my car, that pressure that I felt suddenly began to go away and there was no longer harassment from those evil spirits.
I picked up some fellow members and drove them to our reserved workshop location. We all settled in our same seats from the day before. Evan read scripture from the Bible describing God’s people.
After this scripture was read, Pastor Pam brought this question up to everyone in the workshop: “are you God’s people?” If so, why?” We all went around in a circle to answer this question. When it came to be my turn, I answered: “yes I am God’s people”, and then surprisingly I began to cry. At that time as I was speaking, I had enough. I had enough of the devils antics. I was tired of the enemy finding different ways to bother me. All of the worries in my mind, troubles and fears, at that moment, suddenly I knew that it didn’t matter. I said: “I’m tired of the devils attampts to prevent me from doing what God wants me to do!!! These distractions are not what’s important!” I yelled out: “it’s about Jesus. It’s about Christ!!” As I was talking, Pastor Pam said: “are you born again?” I said to her, I’m just talking. And the attendees laughed. I was letting out my feelings and expressing what I was going through.
At that moment I knew that my wordly worries needed to be pushed aside.
Pastor Pamela Sheppard heard me mention Jesus and she was like a seasoned midwife in addition to a warrior. She got up out of her chair, saw that I was sobbing and talking about Jesus. Which is a noteworthy observation because ever since I renounced my false conversion, I rarely mentioned Jesus’s name for about 5 years. Instead, our counseling sessions often focused on the strongholds that the world had over me.
Back to that moment on July 19th, 2020. Pastor Pam suddenly yelled out “repent!” I replied with: “I can’t.” Pamela Sheppard said is that the devil? And she boldly told the devil to leave. Next, I sobbed, crying, with sorrow, shouting that I sinned over and over again. She then asked me who is your Lord? I had no idea what I was going to say. All of a sudden I blurted “Jesus!!!!!!!!!” “It’s Jesus!!!!!” “It’s Jesus!!!!!!” I heard my own voice, louder than it has ever been in my life talking about Jesus. My voice was roaring loud, filling the entire room. Oh my goodness and after that I was convicted. I was like a screaming, crying baby that was just being born. Faith had just been given to me about Jesus and I had no idea it was going to be given to me at that moment. The Holy Spirit convicted me in such an unforgettable way.
Me, a person who focused so much on what the world thinks was being humbled and broken down by God. How I appeared didn’t matter. All that mattered was what the Holy Spirit was drawing me to and that was the focus of Jesus. I kept saying the name Jesus. As I continued to say his name, I started to realize, Oh my, he actually did come back alive. Truly alive, not in Spirit but physically. It was something that deep down I always thought was impossible and now I believed it.
What was happening was me having a shocking discovery and revelation of this unforgettable miracle of the resurrection of Jesus Christ of Nazareth. What the gospel said was true. It was actually true. I screeched in absolute shock and amazement, with my mouth wide open, walking to one corner of the room, sliding down to the floor, as if no one was in that room. I covered my mouth with amazement. Then I yelled out with a combination of tears, awe, and astonishment, saying out loud over and over, “Oh My God, Jesus is actually alive.”
Then suddenly confidence came to me. A confidence I had never ever felt in my entire life. I felt strong and as if I was a new person. A new person who was no longer bound and restrained. I next walked around the room, celebrating the resurrection of the Lord. All the attendees clapped and cheered for me as this was all happening.
July 21st, 2019 at 12 pm was when my day arrived and I got born again.
God gave me a true salvation experience which was truly supernatural and absolutely not of my own doing. I had no idea I would become born again the day that I did. I was not expecting it. I was GIVEN faith by the grace of God to believe in the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ of Nazareth.
Now today I know that I am a new creation in Christ. His grace of everything he has done and the power that is Him with the faith given to me that He defeated death has been a resounding and continuing impact on me.
The next morning while I was in my own apartment, I walked past my bathroom mirror, took a quick glance and felt that there was something different about how I looked. I first shrugged it off and said, hmmpf maybe it’s nothing. But yet I couldn’t shake off that change I saw. I slowly went to the mirror and looked at my face. I couldn’t believe it but I was right, my face looked different. Relaxed. Happy and no longer tense or rigid. Now there was a look of happiness and excitement. When I smiled, it came naturally and felt so good to smile.
The next day that Pastor Pam saw me she said that I used to have a perpetual look of worry on my forehead and it was now gone. I was shocked that she noticed it too, as I thought that no one else would notice what I saw in the mirror that morning. I would come to find out that other members of the Ministry noticed this change as well.
As for those voices, even before I got born again, they significantly reduced. I have not heard from them 24/7 as I kept continuing my deliverance counseling sessions with Pastor Pam once a week without ever missing a day for 5 years. Since my rebirth less than 2 months ago, I observed even more change and improvement in that aspect. My salvation experience is so unforgettable, that it is my weapon and shield against them. The peace that I have is wonderfully more consistent than before I got born again and the voices from evil spirits continue to dramatically decrease more and more than before. Each week, I notice even more improvement against them, in that their presence has and continues to diminish and be rare.
And now, in 2021, I continue to be strengthened by the Holy Spirit that stays in me. My soul continues to strengthen, as God and the Holy Spirit use the lessons of life to heal me, and provide me with continued growth and empowerment.
Today in 2021 I am maturing in Christ! The peace that I felt the moment I got born again: remains. No matter what I go through, the fruits of the Spirit are my backing, my encouragement. The devil has tried in ulterior ways to distract me, deter me, and discourage me, yet his attempts are just that: attempts. The weapons of Christ’s salvation and overwhelming characteristics of truth always pull me out of whatever attacks the devil has tried.
Since being born again, I have noticed some changes that I didn’t pick up before. I used to get these dreams that would lead me to feel noticeably numb in my body and they seemed so real, and left me with fear during the dream and would linger after waking up. Yet now, I no longer have those dreams.
My desire to alert the elect of God continues. I think about those who are waiting for their time, but just need to be pulled out of the darkness they are in.
Though 2020 has been a challenging year for all, by the grace of God he has repeatedly provided me with wonderful employment opportunities, protection, happiness, and new beginnings. I appreciate the quietness in my mind, which is a lesson for me. You see, many years ago, way before I found Pam Sheppard Ministries, I made several invitations in my life to evil spirits looking for them to “help” me with my problems. As a result, the aforementioned voices from evil spirits came. Now, since I have overcome all of that, as a born again person, I am happy to have the freedom that I have. I enjoy the removal of bondage from religious, worldly, and witchcraft evil spirits.
Hope is a foundation that stays in me. Hope is instilled in me of Christ’s love, and Christ’s power. I am more confident not because of me but because of confidence given to me by Christ. As far as those voices, there is even more freedom from them than when I first got born again. The reduction from their presence continues. I have come a long way when it comes to those voices. The burdened bondage that I felt has been removed, by the grace of Christ. The voices continue to reduce, and there continues to be a dramatic change for the better in regards to that. In that aspect, the improvement always gets better week by week.
Was waiting 5 years for me to get born again worth it? It definitely was. Why? Because while waiting, my soul was being healed in much needed ways. Receiving help from Pam Sheppard Ministries gave me a healthy advantage as I was going about my life. I was safely altering and adjusting my life decisions based on what I knew about Satan’s deception tactics. God has blessed me with the truth as I learned of all the enemy’s deception. I am continually grateful for that. In the midst of waiting for my salvation experience, the progress I made was a sweet gift to have. Like the first bite into your favorite fruit you’ve been longing for, that sweetness of truth is refreshing. Throughout my waiting period, I did not waver but remained steadfast. I continued to learn from Pastor Pam as I had weekly deliverance counseling sessions. Learning that salvation is not of my own doing but a gift from God, helped me during my waiting time. I know that God intended to cause me to eventually enter His family.
The new creation that salvation in Jesus Christ has given to me is extremely fulfilling, rewarding, and sustains me. The grace of salvation by Christ is everlasting and irreplaceable of anything the world offers. The peace the Lord has given to me , I am thankful for it and will always be thankful for it. The Lord has taken me out of Satan’s dark world and into his light of truth.
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